Hello my readers. So sorry for not updating again...
And wanna apologize that my blog is really boring, without pictures caused Im lazy to upload them =p
Anything more updates can keep updating me at facebook ^^
Hmmm im quite fine these days, time really the best to cure your wounds... Its really did...
Everything been made me quite down that are started far far away from me ... Always remind myself have to move on and forgive and forget...
Maybe I think that my schedule didnt allowed me to think much, I have no time to think unnecesary thing to make me upset though. Class then working in weekdays, and spending some lovely time with my friends or family on weekends =)
Awww friends is so important to me... Thanks to Ee Ling and her family members who brought me a lots of joy in this november =) She invited me to her bro's wedding dinner and party at Muar, Johor. I had a lots of fun at there, it was like a short trip to countryside and town at Muar. We had a lots of nice foods, shop a little and play mahjung and had a lots of great moments at Muar. I went there to have my first time handle make up job for a bridal, Ee Ling's bro wife =) Anyhow, still wanna congrats to Champion and Coco ^^ Thanks to give me an opportunity to get my first experience to do make up for bridal and some family members. Thanks to my academy Diva sent me for outstation to occupied my free time and get more experiences for my career. I had been went to Johor for a few times in this November haha XDD
Really in love with working at outstation =) I had been in city for kinda long long time =p
Recently, indulges in branded stuff which is not a good thing I guess... not good at all =.=
Haha been work really hard these days... haha after I get my iphone 4, then wanna plan to get my driving license as soon as possible, I really couldnt stand with the life without the driving license with me =( I mean I dont really enjoy my friends bring me whenever and sent me back home in a quite long distance... I wanna learn to drive since my family have extra cars arghhhhhh~ Wasted right?? =(
And I wanna plan to get a LV next year? Neverfull MM? Speedy? Hmmmm Im too obsessed bout myself hahaha~ Maybe?? ^^
Another bad thing was... had a little fought with my family.. sigh =( But anyhow, I know these all will get it through very fast... I will work harder ^^
Ahhh almost coming to december then Christmas then welcoming the new year 2011~ Sob sobss
Time flies so fast....Honestly Im such useless cz I dont really achieve all of those plans that I planned for a few months ago =( Must gambateh~~~
Work and classes is only my priority now~
Work smart, work hard, earn more and spend more..... =.=
So that we can stimulate our country's economic problem =pppp
❤ Things that I wanted to achieve till end of year 2010 =)
I just dont wanna waste few more months when comes to 2011 ^^
1) Always be optimistic and postive. Yea, been really down after a broke up almost 3 months ago.. I dont want this kind of me, I want a better, rasional, and find back myself of who I am, a real me, an optimistic girl lastime that I used to. Im tired and sick of myself been suffering because of a guy, he just dont deserve be an issue of my life. Wasting my precious time ~ Ha!!!
2) Work harder and put more effort as much as possible. I've already give up my diploma, Im kinda a lil guilty for not study hard when in college life. But finally I found the thing that I really wanted, really happy to learn many new skills about beauty and fashion make up, my new friends and assignments there. I've gained a lots of priceless and wonderful experience. I wanna work really hard for my make up course though Im going to grauduate soon. =) Hair styling and nail course will be very soon.
3) Lose at least 5kg =p Yea, I know I've been repeated for damn many times to lose weight but it just doesnt make it happen arghhh ~ Blame myself for being a food lover and lazy to exercise. This time hmm.. I dont no whether can make it suceed but I do really wanna try this time ^^ Feel free to jog, swim or move a little more to burn some excessive fats =p Try to eat less high carbs and high sugar and salt food T.T Just to boost up my confidence. =D
4) Save money!!!!! Ahhh I know I cant make it this at all~ Tried and tried many times but failed!!! Cosmetics, heels, outfits and everything nice just killing me soo much!!!! I cant even control myself to get these all !!! Sigh.
5) Self reflection. Sometimes I do feels that I have a lil problem to communicate with people. Am I too talkative? complain a lil too much? Can someone just tell what's my problem? So that I can have the chance to change? Yea, and I do really what's my problem and Im trying ny best to change it. I seriously need some people to wake me up =) But please dont give me alots of pressure.. caused no one's perfect right? Agree?
6) A more healthy better lifestyle. Sigh... I think my life kinda used to wake up at night and sleep at noon. Sometimes when I forced myself to sleep early, but my brain will automatically wake myself up in midnight, which is 4-5am =.=lll Arghh what happened larh??!! Make me so suffer to wake up in the morning when off to class and work =(
7) Be brave, and try new things. I wanna have more courage in everything. My work, my diet plan, make new friends, in love matter and be smart and try new things that I never ever or havent really put effort or succeed before =) I just want to open wide my eyes and mind to accept and learn many new things for a brighter future =) hahahaha
Hmmm I think that's all? ^^ Hohoho~ Update my status here ya =) Yea, Im kinda fine now. Im glad that I could find back myself of who am I really =)
I feel great~ Needless to care so much like lastime, to miss someone so badly and suffer whenever, wherever or whatever when thinking of him... I can whatever I want to, can really concentrate on my own things and be myself all the time wootz~~ ^^ These are the things that what I do really enjoyed while being single =DDDD
But when I thinking back the memories we had before.. I were just realize that we were really wrong in the begining... I shoudnt.... ah fine... everything is a past already~
But thanks for your memory, I do really felt being loved lastime, I really do =)
Anyhow, really hope myself can achieves the resolution that I written above ^^ Gonna try my best~~ Wakaka ❤
Wish every of my reader have a nice day ahead and all the best in everything =)
Excuse my english caused I do really did not write any summary or eassay after I give up my diplomas =/ Hahas
Hmm already been one months more that I didnt bck here and update a lil. Hmm recent life wasnt that bad though a lil dull but trying to fulfill life with perfect moments..
Yeah, been single for more than a month already.. time passes rly fast.. glad that I started getting used to it already... not that I want to show that Im available or what, just felt that myself growing up a little, learn to cope with those heart broken thingy already, moving on and looks thing with wider sight just trying to give myself some time to let go~
Hmm been work kinda often to make myself busy and trying to detract myself from thinking too much while too free when alone =( Sound abit pathetic? hahaha that's life I guess ^^
Anyhow, I will move on and move on~~~ And work hard and achieve what I want in the future ^^
Confessions of another broken heart =.= || Back to top.
♥ Life's always unpredictable, and I know have to face unexpected thing everyday...
Ohh oh my love has been diminished nature and wait for another one to hurt me wahahaha XD So that, I can grow up and being careful and pandai sikit nextime =.= wtf.
Hmm broken hearted and currently back to the previous life.. I think the previous life suits me more, I really dont no to cope with love matter well I guess.. haha its not my problem though, problem was the JERK aka BASTARD and that's a part of my life have to suffer a little so that I can grow up and learn lessons =) Hmm I should think in a good way...
Sometimes I do wonder why other of my friends they could being in a relationship for more than 3-4 years or more... and why I cant meet one.. but mine, hmm perhaps we're still young larh... those who were older said ' Aiya, still young larh, choose wisely and it's just an experience.. ' Yeah, still young ma, what for have to be so serious ohh?!! Let it be naturally bah =)) I admit Im a lil playful though, but I know what's not to do and what we should do. The pity one is the one who falls and into deeper the one who hurt deeper... ahhh why my life should always suffer like this =( damnit ~~
Thanks to all my friends that been comfort me, Im glad that Im not alone, they are always stand by for me =) Im blessed =DDD
KP, Samuel, Mei, Elaine, Cindy, Karlmen, Michael and more~ Thank you so much =))))
But anyhow, thanks for happiness that he brought to me... Romance is just an experience, there's still long road ahead~ Love is a part of life that we should face to, so be tough and strong because we always live for ourselves but not for others. Should concentrate on my career, my beloved friends and my beloved family members more onwards ^^ There're still many things and goals waiting for me to do and achieve it =)
Haha sorry for being so... hmmph, forgive me la, I will feel better after I type all of my feelings here =)
And Im feel bad for making my friends and my family worried me aikss~
I will be very fine soon ^^ Gambateh everyone~
Life's still goes on, so be tough to face hardship caused its will makes you stronger and appreciate what you have now ^^
And of course, cheers to all who single out there ~ smoochhh ~
♥ Hello peeps~ Been really long time didnt come up here to update already ^^ Miss me?
Hmm lets talk bout my recent course first, Im glad I didnt choose the wrong path of my future..
I do really enjoyed every single moment during my class, my friends there, teachers there.. They do really makes an important part of my life ^^
st a little upset caused I get any good result of my make up competition on March. But at least I didnt lose anything, I did learned things, know what's my mistakes and focus it and improve on my problems =)
Me and my model of the day. Janice <3 She's pretty~
Natural make up. Hmm blusher it's a lil too much and the base doesnt looks clean and clear like porcelain skin =(
Night make up. Aiks, I really so careless to choose dramatic fake eyelashes for this make up, then it turned out so fashion and forced to change, so overall I dont have enough time to do this make up well =(
Fashion make up for Diva Gala Party <3
Me and my model =)
Hmm most probably I wish I can graduate my make up course end of this year, after that I will go for nail or hair course to pursue my dreams and look for a full time job to pay my course fees =)
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Relationship? Hmm everyone knows love can make people goes blind. I really blind folded ahh =/ Almost been with him almost 6 months already, time passes so fast.. happy moment ends really fast but sadness needed much time to get through with it.. I know being together is aint easy, have to tolerate, understanding...
We did argued for almost a month, it's another part of hardship between us, lastime we did passed every hardship sucessfully but this time.. it's really a tough thing for me...
p/s: Sorry dear, I know Im being over-reacted recently, thinking too much caused us more problems, and pressure on you work... been really upset.. I born with a senstitive heart, I know im selfish sometimes, afraid of being hurt.. but never care bout your feelings... Hopes everything will back to normal and ILY and IMY so much~~ sigh =(
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Time passes really fast, just like a blink of an eyes, it's coming to June already... another chapters of my life..
I know I had been concentrate on my relationship a lil much... There's still left many things for me to do, my future, my dreams, my job and my studies.. and my friends and family...
I felt that I've been neglected them... I wanna try my best to focus more on my own things =)
Gambateh Tracy Teo ^^ Be good to yourself, because we deserves it!!
Till here.
Hope every of my readers here happy and healthy always =)
♥ Dear blogger, I came here to express my feelings...
Things that couldnt hardly split it from my mouth to tell someone...
I always remember all the ups and downs and those happy moments that being with you...
Thanks for everything that we had been through, I felt being loved and appreciated ^^ Thanks for your toleration, kindness, caring, understanding and advices. Honestly, I had been long long time never concerned and care by someone like you... after been through previous darkness.. I always sleep late and didnt really care my routine of my life, you said it's very unhealthy to used to being sleep late always; you said I had being over headstrong and sturborn in everything, have to tolerate, care and respect each other caused it's no longer one person thing anymore.... ; you said we shoudlnt waste time to quarrel and blame each other, because life is too short for us to waste time on those unnecessary thing...
Anyhow, I like you to being so long-winded, complaining and talking too much about me... because I know you care about the relationship so much that I thought...
Sorry caused I couldnt be a nice girl that you wishes for, because of my headstrong-ness, my attitude, sorry and forgive me caused I felt like I had already used to my single life previously, I like to being myself, a little selfish and sturborn... do whatever I want, go wherever I want... But I know I have to change when I met you.. I have to be tolerate, respect, listen, care and understand your feelings...
p/s: But Im having a little problem that I started looking for some freedom, sometimes I questioned myself to why freedom being so important to me... when I looked back the previous me, I realised that... hmm perhaps I used to put myself instead of someone else... Lastime I used to being independent and freely deciding on my decisions, chasing my dreams and goals... but everything seems changed... but its okay... for the first time I met you, I know I wont be regret to love you... hmmmmmmphhh =/
Sorry for been MIA for so damn long... I dont have the passion to blog like lastime I used to, blog everything that wanna to share to the whole world ^^ Anyhow, I will try my best to try to blog more ya, wont quite blogging but just still open it for public to read it =)
Hmm everything goes quite well frm end of 09' to 10'... nothing really bad happen at least =)
But this time I signed in here, to blog bout him.... =)
Thanks to him. I started have hopes, faith and get out from darkness in love since I met him... If you know me really well or been follow my blog for long time.. Imma such a goddamn foolish, lost, pessimistics, emo and loser person lastime... most of my close friends said that Im a really dark-minded person... everything have to think from the bad and being so pessimistics for long long time...
We started to being a very very normal friend. We know each other from friend's friend. We didnt talk much at all but just having fun together in the club with his friends. Hmm after the night, thanks to facebook =) We still keep in touch as acquaintance in fb. We went out for drinking session after he finished his work... of course, I didnt have any special feelings but friend to chat many things with him for the first time. And yet, he's already not available that moment. Nah, really have nothing for the first time, but after the chat, my first thought for him was.. '' Hmm he's really a nice, funny and ambitious guy. And he's very good to his gf...''
I always treated him as a normal friend, we chat almost everyday in msn either sms, met few times in a week... hmm so weird for a normal friend right? It was nothing at the begining but as times goes by... I think I started have feelings to him like I never used to be like others. But I know I shouldnt do that caused he's not available at all =[ Somtimes, I wonder why he treated me like this... a little too much for being a normal friend... Too much of time to chat and hang out together for being a normal friend already... I always used to comfort him when he has problems with his relationship, his stressful work and more. Try to pretend as a real buddy for him to accompany him... I just try to do whatever for a friend that makes him feel happier... How stupid I am for lastime... ='((( I tried to give up and just wanna to treated him as a sincere good friend... For me, perhaps you dont have to have him to be your love ones, I dont want to ask for more, tell him what I feel to him.. As long he's happy, everything already was worthwhile for me ^^ At least, I have a really nice and funny friend, a person good to chat with =) No pain, no gain =p
On the last day of 2009 and first day of 2010, we hang out for club with his friends and had alots of fun... but the most memorable thing is, I had the first kiss (eventhough it was on my cheek but I was melting already that time... aww~), first breakfast, the first one and I wanted to meet so bad on the first day of year 2010... I know Im stupid and shouldnt to think bout that much, but it was a good start and memorable day for me =)
But until he has major problems with his relationship... broke up and back to single... I did felt bad and sad for him... but he said he have to and let go for his work and future... We did getting closer and closer after the broke up, met each other more and more... Until the day we hang out for club with a lots of friends... I felt a weird feelings that he never used to treated me like before... even his buddies and my babes and dudes asked is it he's my bf hahaha XD After club, he sent me home and we chat alots again in his car....... He told me everything bout his feelings towards me... bla bla bla... we blushed, we smiled and we laughed.... I dont want say bout it more la hahaha =)
Sometimes I do felt bad for his ex, feel upset because he could let go so easily for his past, worried that he might hurt, dissapoint or maybe worse, betrayed me some day... worried that he misses his ex or whatever shit and crapsss...
I just dont want to care that much anymore...
Well, I can't denied that I feel so goddamn nice during the period that I'm spending with him. I'm lucky to have him, that I willing to sacrifice for him... lalalala =p
I don't mind to be teased by people around me, criticize it, I don't mind people I know said that I'm a fool, for loving him, I felt so different when I'm being him, just feel like giving him all the best of mine... Really...
I know we couldnt change or get whatever you want to, but I will try my best to be a girlfriend =)
I just want to appeciates and cherish the day that I've spent with him.. Though my past gave me alots of sorrow, unhappy experiences, and thinking too negatively... Sometimes I know Imma a little selfish, realized that Im bad and couldnt help you anything but giving alots trouble, but I'll promise, I will appreciates what you had did to me and again, I'll promise to be a good girlfriend, ^^
♥ Hello Im back =) Just really miss my blog and have a little mood to update here hehe =)
Miss me? I had been away for hectic and look for a fuller life, to attend classes every weekdays and work every weekend.... Urghhh it's good to being busy... aikss I need some break some days =((( I miss karaoke, clubs, musics, movies and outing with friends, dudes and babes and more.
OKay, it's time to update already...
My 19th birthday party... errr not to mention is a 'party', it's just a small gathering with my close friends... hmmm overall... at least it's better than my 18th bday =((( haih...
Ohh but thanks to Des, Sam and Justin and friends to bought the bday cake for me =) I am soo happy cz I have 2 bday cake this year ^^ (just so you know, I dont have a really nice bday celebration... until now, but nevermine... )
First, we had a pre-birthday celebration at Maison which planned by another bday boy- Jun Wen... hmm but due to some problems, at last we decided to celeb at MOS Euphoria... which I wish to celeb at there more than Maison =) Haih... it was a long lame story....
Honestly, I didnt expect much for this year bday cz usually I dont have a proper bday celebration before... but suprisingly, Justin called and asked me to go for drinking and poker session before my bday which is at 18th of October at Dolphin which located at Pandan Indah.
Though it's just a mini gathering with my usual babes and friends, hmmm I am happy cz there's still have people remember my bday... ahhhh really pathetic right? =((
Anyhow, thanks to KP, CM, Justin and WK again =]
Thanks for the cake ^^
Hehehehe XD
Sorry those photos from MOS had already gone since I had already reformat my pc =((
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Pics from clubbing night at Barcelona =)
Date: 2 Oct 09
Groupie pics =)
My babes and dudes =))) Weeeee
Taken almost 100 plus pics but these all the best one =)))
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And recently I was really addicted to collect sample from different skin care or cosmetics brand =) No doubt, I do really really love them hehe ^^
Etude House, Clinique, Kiehl's, Laneige, Lancome, Loreal, Vichy, Skin Food, The Face Shop, Uriage and more hehehehe XD So excited when Im looking them XD
Show off some pics of my love, my lovely precious cosmetics and skin care products =]
AHHhhh my lovely collection =) My skin cre and cosmetics ^^
With all the samples, some sheet mask and gel mask, my fake eyelashes collection, varieties colours of nail polishes and my daily skin care routine =)
My cosmetics bags, lip care, some samples, MAC and Callas loose powder, MAC compact powder, used eye fake eyelashes, lip glosses, eye brow pencils... and the pics will do the talking =)
Sunblock is a must for me, make-up remover, brush set, make-up base, skin79 bb cream and hair spray.
Gonna be another hectic month by the coming September =] Just full of work and attend classes T.T
Good things to share ^^
From anti-clockwise.
1) Kose Seikisho Perfect Cleansing Oil. Usually I dont fancy about cleansing oil to use to remover my make up, caused it'll give you a uncomfortable and greasy feel after you wash. But I'd give it a try after the I heard the reviews from my beauty trainee and it turned out really great =) It wont feel greasy and uncomfortable after used, but suprisingly my face felt so fresh and hydrated. Cleansing oil is the most effective to remove make up compare to cleansing water, lotion, milk or gel. Its really good for make up student which we have to remove makeups almost 2-3 times during practical. But too bad it's a lil pricey for me T.T
2) Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler. Its the best eyelash curler ever!!! It's even mentioned in the movie- The devil wears prada. Dont believe it? Please watch the movie again or google or wiki it XD
3) The beauty diary masks. Its being the most famous mask in Taiwan. I love sheet mask caused I used to put on it on my face before I sleep, so I no need to jump off from my bed to wash it off and just take it off after 20-30 mins then continue my beauty sleep. Teehee.
I purchased the whole 7 days whitening masks set to give it a try. The set included seven different types of functions and ingredients, so therefore I can try others to see the difference and choose which is the best on my skin =) Mask is a best treatment ever for the skin ^^ And its affortable~ hehehehe
4) Skin79 Gold Edition BB Cream. I dont fancy about bb cream previously caused it does not provides good coverage and feels like nothing on the skin after you apply. ( I mean is it's useless if its does not balanced your skin tone like liquid foundation does, so what for waste your money to buy it?? Right? ) But everything changed after I heard many good reviews on skin 79 bb cream and.... I was sold =='
I purchased the skin 79 bb cream and I couldnt wait to use it. After used, it was like OMG, my skin still looks good and smooth after clubbing, it does provides a good coverage too .... just so you know I used to sweat alots when club haha ^^ It's a really great substitute for liquid foundation. It's a must try for non-user =)
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And I fell in love with light make up that inspired by Bobbi Brown Nude Collection.
What am I using for this look :
Foundation: Skin 79 gold edition bb cream
Concealer: TFS The Flower Dual Concealer
Powder: Callas Face Powder
Brows: Etude House 01 Earth Brown
Eyeshadow: Shu Uemura - M Brown 810
Blusher: MAC - Pink Swoon
Shading: MAC- Harmony
Highlighter: TFS Black Label 01
Eyeliner: Kate gel eyeliner - Black
Mascara: Loreal Double Extension Beauty Tubes
Lip: Nivea Essential Lip care and MAC Lipglass
Sorry for being self-obsessed recently. I just love to share good things and post whatever I want. Peace =)
Couldnt resist the temptation aikkss.... Though most of them are pricey but still kept it as my wishlist, set it as a small goal for me to achieve to buy them when I have the money =) They're really good quality and many pro make up artists recommended.
My make up case wishlist :
Coastal Scents 88 Pigment set
Bobbi Brown Basic Brush Collection
* Limited Edition* BBU Palette
Love Bobbi Brown Face make up =)
Hahaha its impossible for me but I still kept it as my wishlist ^^
Bobbi Brown Corrector
This is a must for make up artist, to covers very dark circles and extra coverage.
Bobbi Brown Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner.
Its easy and smooth when apply. Many good reviews and recommended by many make up artist =)
Lancome L'EXTREME mascara.
NARS Blusher, Eyeshadow and lip gloss. Too bad there're not available in Msia =(
Hello Hi, my name is Tracy Teo. Born in 19th October 1990, from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Love and appreciates beautiful things in life. Currently taking professional make up course and work as a freelancer.
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My email: tracytyc90@hotmail.com
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Hello my readers. So sorry for not updating again...
And wanna apologize that my blog is really boring, without pictures caused Im lazy to upload them =p
Anything more updates can keep updating me at facebook ^^
Hmmm im quite fine these days, time really the best to cure your wounds... Its really did...
Everything been made me quite down that are started far far away from me ... Always remind myself have to move on and forgive and forget...
Maybe I think that my schedule didnt allowed me to think much, I have no time to think unnecesary thing to make me upset though. Class then working in weekdays, and spending some lovely time with my friends or family on weekends =)
Awww friends is so important to me... Thanks to Ee Ling and her family members who brought me a lots of joy in this november =) She invited me to her bro's wedding dinner and party at Muar, Johor. I had a lots of fun at there, it was like a short trip to countryside and town at Muar. We had a lots of nice foods, shop a little and play mahjung and had a lots of great moments at Muar. I went there to have my first time handle make up job for a bridal, Ee Ling's bro wife =) Anyhow, still wanna congrats to Champion and Coco ^^ Thanks to give me an opportunity to get my first experience to do make up for bridal and some family members. Thanks to my academy Diva sent me for outstation to occupied my free time and get more experiences for my career. I had been went to Johor for a few times in this November haha XDD
Really in love with working at outstation =) I had been in city for kinda long long time =p
Recently, indulges in branded stuff which is not a good thing I guess... not good at all =.=
Haha been work really hard these days... haha after I get my iphone 4, then wanna plan to get my driving license as soon as possible, I really couldnt stand with the life without the driving license with me =( I mean I dont really enjoy my friends bring me whenever and sent me back home in a quite long distance... I wanna learn to drive since my family have extra cars arghhhhhh~ Wasted right?? =(
And I wanna plan to get a LV next year? Neverfull MM? Speedy? Hmmmm Im too obsessed bout myself hahaha~ Maybe?? ^^
Another bad thing was... had a little fought with my family.. sigh =( But anyhow, I know these all will get it through very fast... I will work harder ^^
Ahhh almost coming to december then Christmas then welcoming the new year 2011~ Sob sobss
Time flies so fast....Honestly Im such useless cz I dont really achieve all of those plans that I planned for a few months ago =( Must gambateh~~~
Work and classes is only my priority now~
Work smart, work hard, earn more and spend more..... =.=
So that we can stimulate our country's economic problem =pppp
❤ Things that I wanted to achieve till end of year 2010 =)
I just dont wanna waste few more months when comes to 2011 ^^
1) Always be optimistic and postive. Yea, been really down after a broke up almost 3 months ago.. I dont want this kind of me, I want a better, rasional, and find back myself of who I am, a real me, an optimistic girl lastime that I used to. Im tired and sick of myself been suffering because of a guy, he just dont deserve be an issue of my life. Wasting my precious time ~ Ha!!!
2) Work harder and put more effort as much as possible. I've already give up my diploma, Im kinda a lil guilty for not study hard when in college life. But finally I found the thing that I really wanted, really happy to learn many new skills about beauty and fashion make up, my new friends and assignments there. I've gained a lots of priceless and wonderful experience. I wanna work really hard for my make up course though Im going to grauduate soon. =) Hair styling and nail course will be very soon.
3) Lose at least 5kg =p Yea, I know I've been repeated for damn many times to lose weight but it just doesnt make it happen arghhh ~ Blame myself for being a food lover and lazy to exercise. This time hmm.. I dont no whether can make it suceed but I do really wanna try this time ^^ Feel free to jog, swim or move a little more to burn some excessive fats =p Try to eat less high carbs and high sugar and salt food T.T Just to boost up my confidence. =D
4) Save money!!!!! Ahhh I know I cant make it this at all~ Tried and tried many times but failed!!! Cosmetics, heels, outfits and everything nice just killing me soo much!!!! I cant even control myself to get these all !!! Sigh.
5) Self reflection. Sometimes I do feels that I have a lil problem to communicate with people. Am I too talkative? complain a lil too much? Can someone just tell what's my problem? So that I can have the chance to change? Yea, and I do really what's my problem and Im trying ny best to change it. I seriously need some people to wake me up =) But please dont give me alots of pressure.. caused no one's perfect right? Agree?
6) A more healthy better lifestyle. Sigh... I think my life kinda used to wake up at night and sleep at noon. Sometimes when I forced myself to sleep early, but my brain will automatically wake myself up in midnight, which is 4-5am =.=lll Arghh what happened larh??!! Make me so suffer to wake up in the morning when off to class and work =(
7) Be brave, and try new things. I wanna have more courage in everything. My work, my diet plan, make new friends, in love matter and be smart and try new things that I never ever or havent really put effort or succeed before =) I just want to open wide my eyes and mind to accept and learn many new things for a brighter future =) hahahaha
Hmmm I think that's all? ^^ Hohoho~ Update my status here ya =) Yea, Im kinda fine now. Im glad that I could find back myself of who am I really =)
I feel great~ Needless to care so much like lastime, to miss someone so badly and suffer whenever, wherever or whatever when thinking of him... I can whatever I want to, can really concentrate on my own things and be myself all the time wootz~~ ^^ These are the things that what I do really enjoyed while being single =DDDD
But when I thinking back the memories we had before.. I were just realize that we were really wrong in the begining... I shoudnt.... ah fine... everything is a past already~
But thanks for your memory, I do really felt being loved lastime, I really do =)
Anyhow, really hope myself can achieves the resolution that I written above ^^ Gonna try my best~~ Wakaka ❤
Wish every of my reader have a nice day ahead and all the best in everything =)
Excuse my english caused I do really did not write any summary or eassay after I give up my diplomas =/ Hahas
Hmm already been one months more that I didnt bck here and update a lil. Hmm recent life wasnt that bad though a lil dull but trying to fulfill life with perfect moments..
Yeah, been single for more than a month already.. time passes rly fast.. glad that I started getting used to it already... not that I want to show that Im available or what, just felt that myself growing up a little, learn to cope with those heart broken thingy already, moving on and looks thing with wider sight just trying to give myself some time to let go~
Hmm been work kinda often to make myself busy and trying to detract myself from thinking too much while too free when alone =( Sound abit pathetic? hahaha that's life I guess ^^
Anyhow, I will move on and move on~~~ And work hard and achieve what I want in the future ^^
Confessions of another broken heart =.= || Back to top.
♥ Life's always unpredictable, and I know have to face unexpected thing everyday...
Ohh oh my love has been diminished nature and wait for another one to hurt me wahahaha XD So that, I can grow up and being careful and pandai sikit nextime =.= wtf.
Hmm broken hearted and currently back to the previous life.. I think the previous life suits me more, I really dont no to cope with love matter well I guess.. haha its not my problem though, problem was the JERK aka BASTARD and that's a part of my life have to suffer a little so that I can grow up and learn lessons =) Hmm I should think in a good way...
Sometimes I do wonder why other of my friends they could being in a relationship for more than 3-4 years or more... and why I cant meet one.. but mine, hmm perhaps we're still young larh... those who were older said ' Aiya, still young larh, choose wisely and it's just an experience.. ' Yeah, still young ma, what for have to be so serious ohh?!! Let it be naturally bah =)) I admit Im a lil playful though, but I know what's not to do and what we should do. The pity one is the one who falls and into deeper the one who hurt deeper... ahhh why my life should always suffer like this =( damnit ~~
Thanks to all my friends that been comfort me, Im glad that Im not alone, they are always stand by for me =) Im blessed =DDD
KP, Samuel, Mei, Elaine, Cindy, Karlmen, Michael and more~ Thank you so much =))))
But anyhow, thanks for happiness that he brought to me... Romance is just an experience, there's still long road ahead~ Love is a part of life that we should face to, so be tough and strong because we always live for ourselves but not for others. Should concentrate on my career, my beloved friends and my beloved family members more onwards ^^ There're still many things and goals waiting for me to do and achieve it =)
Haha sorry for being so... hmmph, forgive me la, I will feel better after I type all of my feelings here =)
And Im feel bad for making my friends and my family worried me aikss~
I will be very fine soon ^^ Gambateh everyone~
Life's still goes on, so be tough to face hardship caused its will makes you stronger and appreciate what you have now ^^
And of course, cheers to all who single out there ~ smoochhh ~
♥ Hello peeps~ Been really long time didnt come up here to update already ^^ Miss me?
Hmm lets talk bout my recent course first, Im glad I didnt choose the wrong path of my future..
I do really enjoyed every single moment during my class, my friends there, teachers there.. They do really makes an important part of my life ^^
st a little upset caused I get any good result of my make up competition on March. But at least I didnt lose anything, I did learned things, know what's my mistakes and focus it and improve on my problems =)
Me and my model of the day. Janice <3 She's pretty~
Natural make up. Hmm blusher it's a lil too much and the base doesnt looks clean and clear like porcelain skin =(
Night make up. Aiks, I really so careless to choose dramatic fake eyelashes for this make up, then it turned out so fashion and forced to change, so overall I dont have enough time to do this make up well =(
Fashion make up for Diva Gala Party <3
Me and my model =)
Hmm most probably I wish I can graduate my make up course end of this year, after that I will go for nail or hair course to pursue my dreams and look for a full time job to pay my course fees =)
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Relationship? Hmm everyone knows love can make people goes blind. I really blind folded ahh =/ Almost been with him almost 6 months already, time passes so fast.. happy moment ends really fast but sadness needed much time to get through with it.. I know being together is aint easy, have to tolerate, understanding...
We did argued for almost a month, it's another part of hardship between us, lastime we did passed every hardship sucessfully but this time.. it's really a tough thing for me...
p/s: Sorry dear, I know Im being over-reacted recently, thinking too much caused us more problems, and pressure on you work... been really upset.. I born with a senstitive heart, I know im selfish sometimes, afraid of being hurt.. but never care bout your feelings... Hopes everything will back to normal and ILY and IMY so much~~ sigh =(
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Time passes really fast, just like a blink of an eyes, it's coming to June already... another chapters of my life..
I know I had been concentrate on my relationship a lil much... There's still left many things for me to do, my future, my dreams, my job and my studies.. and my friends and family...
I felt that I've been neglected them... I wanna try my best to focus more on my own things =)
Gambateh Tracy Teo ^^ Be good to yourself, because we deserves it!!
Till here.
Hope every of my readers here happy and healthy always =)
♥ Dear blogger, I came here to express my feelings...
Things that couldnt hardly split it from my mouth to tell someone...
I always remember all the ups and downs and those happy moments that being with you...
Thanks for everything that we had been through, I felt being loved and appreciated ^^ Thanks for your toleration, kindness, caring, understanding and advices. Honestly, I had been long long time never concerned and care by someone like you... after been through previous darkness.. I always sleep late and didnt really care my routine of my life, you said it's very unhealthy to used to being sleep late always; you said I had being over headstrong and sturborn in everything, have to tolerate, care and respect each other caused it's no longer one person thing anymore.... ; you said we shoudlnt waste time to quarrel and blame each other, because life is too short for us to waste time on those unnecessary thing...
Anyhow, I like you to being so long-winded, complaining and talking too much about me... because I know you care about the relationship so much that I thought...
Sorry caused I couldnt be a nice girl that you wishes for, because of my headstrong-ness, my attitude, sorry and forgive me caused I felt like I had already used to my single life previously, I like to being myself, a little selfish and sturborn... do whatever I want, go wherever I want... But I know I have to change when I met you.. I have to be tolerate, respect, listen, care and understand your feelings...
p/s: But Im having a little problem that I started looking for some freedom, sometimes I questioned myself to why freedom being so important to me... when I looked back the previous me, I realised that... hmm perhaps I used to put myself instead of someone else... Lastime I used to being independent and freely deciding on my decisions, chasing my dreams and goals... but everything seems changed... but its okay... for the first time I met you, I know I wont be regret to love you... hmmmmmmphhh =/
Sorry for been MIA for so damn long... I dont have the passion to blog like lastime I used to, blog everything that wanna to share to the whole world ^^ Anyhow, I will try my best to try to blog more ya, wont quite blogging but just still open it for public to read it =)
Hmm everything goes quite well frm end of 09' to 10'... nothing really bad happen at least =)
But this time I signed in here, to blog bout him.... =)
Thanks to him. I started have hopes, faith and get out from darkness in love since I met him... If you know me really well or been follow my blog for long time.. Imma such a goddamn foolish, lost, pessimistics, emo and loser person lastime... most of my close friends said that Im a really dark-minded person... everything have to think from the bad and being so pessimistics for long long time...
We started to being a very very normal friend. We know each other from friend's friend. We didnt talk much at all but just having fun together in the club with his friends. Hmm after the night, thanks to facebook =) We still keep in touch as acquaintance in fb. We went out for drinking session after he finished his work... of course, I didnt have any special feelings but friend to chat many things with him for the first time. And yet, he's already not available that moment. Nah, really have nothing for the first time, but after the chat, my first thought for him was.. '' Hmm he's really a nice, funny and ambitious guy. And he's very good to his gf...''
I always treated him as a normal friend, we chat almost everyday in msn either sms, met few times in a week... hmm so weird for a normal friend right? It was nothing at the begining but as times goes by... I think I started have feelings to him like I never used to be like others. But I know I shouldnt do that caused he's not available at all =[ Somtimes, I wonder why he treated me like this... a little too much for being a normal friend... Too much of time to chat and hang out together for being a normal friend already... I always used to comfort him when he has problems with his relationship, his stressful work and more. Try to pretend as a real buddy for him to accompany him... I just try to do whatever for a friend that makes him feel happier... How stupid I am for lastime... ='((( I tried to give up and just wanna to treated him as a sincere good friend... For me, perhaps you dont have to have him to be your love ones, I dont want to ask for more, tell him what I feel to him.. As long he's happy, everything already was worthwhile for me ^^ At least, I have a really nice and funny friend, a person good to chat with =) No pain, no gain =p
On the last day of 2009 and first day of 2010, we hang out for club with his friends and had alots of fun... but the most memorable thing is, I had the first kiss (eventhough it was on my cheek but I was melting already that time... aww~), first breakfast, the first one and I wanted to meet so bad on the first day of year 2010... I know Im stupid and shouldnt to think bout that much, but it was a good start and memorable day for me =)
But until he has major problems with his relationship... broke up and back to single... I did felt bad and sad for him... but he said he have to and let go for his work and future... We did getting closer and closer after the broke up, met each other more and more... Until the day we hang out for club with a lots of friends... I felt a weird feelings that he never used to treated me like before... even his buddies and my babes and dudes asked is it he's my bf hahaha XD After club, he sent me home and we chat alots again in his car....... He told me everything bout his feelings towards me... bla bla bla... we blushed, we smiled and we laughed.... I dont want say bout it more la hahaha =)
Sometimes I do felt bad for his ex, feel upset because he could let go so easily for his past, worried that he might hurt, dissapoint or maybe worse, betrayed me some day... worried that he misses his ex or whatever shit and crapsss...
I just dont want to care that much anymore...
Well, I can't denied that I feel so goddamn nice during the period that I'm spending with him. I'm lucky to have him, that I willing to sacrifice for him... lalalala =p
I don't mind to be teased by people around me, criticize it, I don't mind people I know said that I'm a fool, for loving him, I felt so different when I'm being him, just feel like giving him all the best of mine... Really...
I know we couldnt change or get whatever you want to, but I will try my best to be a girlfriend =)
I just want to appeciates and cherish the day that I've spent with him.. Though my past gave me alots of sorrow, unhappy experiences, and thinking too negatively... Sometimes I know Imma a little selfish, realized that Im bad and couldnt help you anything but giving alots trouble, but I'll promise, I will appreciates what you had did to me and again, I'll promise to be a good girlfriend, ^^
♥ Hello Im back =) Just really miss my blog and have a little mood to update here hehe =)
Miss me? I had been away for hectic and look for a fuller life, to attend classes every weekdays and work every weekend.... Urghhh it's good to being busy... aikss I need some break some days =((( I miss karaoke, clubs, musics, movies and outing with friends, dudes and babes and more.
OKay, it's time to update already...
My 19th birthday party... errr not to mention is a 'party', it's just a small gathering with my close friends... hmmm overall... at least it's better than my 18th bday =((( haih...
Ohh but thanks to Des, Sam and Justin and friends to bought the bday cake for me =) I am soo happy cz I have 2 bday cake this year ^^ (just so you know, I dont have a really nice bday celebration... until now, but nevermine... )
First, we had a pre-birthday celebration at Maison which planned by another bday boy- Jun Wen... hmm but due to some problems, at last we decided to celeb at MOS Euphoria... which I wish to celeb at there more than Maison =) Haih... it was a long lame story....
Honestly, I didnt expect much for this year bday cz usually I dont have a proper bday celebration before... but suprisingly, Justin called and asked me to go for drinking and poker session before my bday which is at 18th of October at Dolphin which located at Pandan Indah.
Though it's just a mini gathering with my usual babes and friends, hmmm I am happy cz there's still have people remember my bday... ahhhh really pathetic right? =((
Anyhow, thanks to KP, CM, Justin and WK again =]
Thanks for the cake ^^
Hehehehe XD
Sorry those photos from MOS had already gone since I had already reformat my pc =((
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Pics from clubbing night at Barcelona =)
Date: 2 Oct 09
Groupie pics =)
My babes and dudes =))) Weeeee
Taken almost 100 plus pics but these all the best one =)))
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And recently I was really addicted to collect sample from different skin care or cosmetics brand =) No doubt, I do really really love them hehe ^^
Etude House, Clinique, Kiehl's, Laneige, Lancome, Loreal, Vichy, Skin Food, The Face Shop, Uriage and more hehehehe XD So excited when Im looking them XD
Show off some pics of my love, my lovely precious cosmetics and skin care products =]
AHHhhh my lovely collection =) My skin cre and cosmetics ^^
With all the samples, some sheet mask and gel mask, my fake eyelashes collection, varieties colours of nail polishes and my daily skin care routine =)
My cosmetics bags, lip care, some samples, MAC and Callas loose powder, MAC compact powder, used eye fake eyelashes, lip glosses, eye brow pencils... and the pics will do the talking =)
Sunblock is a must for me, make-up remover, brush set, make-up base, skin79 bb cream and hair spray.
Gonna be another hectic month by the coming September =] Just full of work and attend classes T.T
Good things to share ^^
From anti-clockwise.
1) Kose Seikisho Perfect Cleansing Oil. Usually I dont fancy about cleansing oil to use to remover my make up, caused it'll give you a uncomfortable and greasy feel after you wash. But I'd give it a try after the I heard the reviews from my beauty trainee and it turned out really great =) It wont feel greasy and uncomfortable after used, but suprisingly my face felt so fresh and hydrated. Cleansing oil is the most effective to remove make up compare to cleansing water, lotion, milk or gel. Its really good for make up student which we have to remove makeups almost 2-3 times during practical. But too bad it's a lil pricey for me T.T
2) Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler. Its the best eyelash curler ever!!! It's even mentioned in the movie- The devil wears prada. Dont believe it? Please watch the movie again or google or wiki it XD
3) The beauty diary masks. Its being the most famous mask in Taiwan. I love sheet mask caused I used to put on it on my face before I sleep, so I no need to jump off from my bed to wash it off and just take it off after 20-30 mins then continue my beauty sleep. Teehee.
I purchased the whole 7 days whitening masks set to give it a try. The set included seven different types of functions and ingredients, so therefore I can try others to see the difference and choose which is the best on my skin =) Mask is a best treatment ever for the skin ^^ And its affortable~ hehehehe
4) Skin79 Gold Edition BB Cream. I dont fancy about bb cream previously caused it does not provides good coverage and feels like nothing on the skin after you apply. ( I mean is it's useless if its does not balanced your skin tone like liquid foundation does, so what for waste your money to buy it?? Right? ) But everything changed after I heard many good reviews on skin 79 bb cream and.... I was sold =='
I purchased the skin 79 bb cream and I couldnt wait to use it. After used, it was like OMG, my skin still looks good and smooth after clubbing, it does provides a good coverage too .... just so you know I used to sweat alots when club haha ^^ It's a really great substitute for liquid foundation. It's a must try for non-user =)
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And I fell in love with light make up that inspired by Bobbi Brown Nude Collection.
What am I using for this look :
Foundation: Skin 79 gold edition bb cream
Concealer: TFS The Flower Dual Concealer
Powder: Callas Face Powder
Brows: Etude House 01 Earth Brown
Eyeshadow: Shu Uemura - M Brown 810
Blusher: MAC - Pink Swoon
Shading: MAC- Harmony
Highlighter: TFS Black Label 01
Eyeliner: Kate gel eyeliner - Black
Mascara: Loreal Double Extension Beauty Tubes
Lip: Nivea Essential Lip care and MAC Lipglass
Sorry for being self-obsessed recently. I just love to share good things and post whatever I want. Peace =)
Couldnt resist the temptation aikkss.... Though most of them are pricey but still kept it as my wishlist, set it as a small goal for me to achieve to buy them when I have the money =) They're really good quality and many pro make up artists recommended.
My make up case wishlist :
Coastal Scents 88 Pigment set
Bobbi Brown Basic Brush Collection
* Limited Edition* BBU Palette
Love Bobbi Brown Face make up =)
Hahaha its impossible for me but I still kept it as my wishlist ^^
Bobbi Brown Corrector
This is a must for make up artist, to covers very dark circles and extra coverage.
Bobbi Brown Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner.
Its easy and smooth when apply. Many good reviews and recommended by many make up artist =)
Lancome L'EXTREME mascara.
NARS Blusher, Eyeshadow and lip gloss. Too bad there're not available in Msia =(
I purchased the whole 7 days whitening masks set to give it a try. The set included seven different types of functions and ingredients, so therefore I can try others to see the difference and choose which is the best on my skin =) Mask is a best treatment ever for the skin ^^ And its affortable~ hehehehe
Thanks for the cake ^^ 
My babes and dudes =))) Weeeee
Bobbi Brown Corrector
Bobbi Brown Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner.
