Absolute Ordinary ♥

Recovered.

2010-11-29T04:17:00.001+08:00

Hello my readers. So sorry for not updating again...

And wanna apologize that my blog is really boring, without pictures caused Im lazy to upload them =p
Anything more updates can keep updating me at facebook ^^

Hmmm im quite fine these days, time really the best to cure your wounds... Its really did...
Everything been made me quite down that are started far far away from me ... Always remind myself have to move on and forgive and forget...
Maybe I think that my schedule didnt allowed me to think much, I have no time to think unnecesary thing to make me upset though. Class then working in weekdays, and spending some lovely time with my friends or family on weekends =)
Awww friends is so important to me... Thanks to Ee Ling and her family members who brought me a lots of joy in this november =) She invited me to her bro's wedding dinner and party at Muar, Johor. I had a lots of fun at there, it was like a short trip to countryside and town at Muar. We had a lots of nice foods, shop a little and play mahjung and had a lots of great moments at Muar. I went there to have my first time handle make up job for a bridal, Ee Ling's bro wife =) Anyhow, still wanna congrats to Champion and Coco ^^ Thanks to give me an opportunity to get my first experience to do make up for bridal and some family members. Thanks to my academy Diva sent me for outstation to occupied my free time and get more experiences for my career. I had been went to Johor for a few times in this November haha XDD

Really in love with working at outstation =) I had been in city for kinda long long time =p
Recently, indulges in branded stuff which is not a good thing I guess... not good at all =.=
Haha been work really hard these days... haha after I get my iphone 4, then wanna plan to get my driving license as soon as possible, I really couldnt stand with the life without the driving license with me =( I mean I dont really enjoy my friends bring me whenever and sent me back home in a quite long distance... I wanna learn to drive since my family have extra cars arghhhhhh~ Wasted right?? =(
And I wanna plan to get a LV next year? Neverfull MM? Speedy? Hmmmm Im too obsessed bout myself hahaha~ Maybe?? ^^

Another bad thing was... had a little fought with my family.. sigh =( But anyhow, I know these all will get it through very fast... I will work harder ^^

Ahhh almost coming to december then Christmas then welcoming the new year 2011~ Sob sobss
Time flies so fast....Honestly Im such useless cz I dont really achieve all of those plans that I planned for a few months ago =( Must gambateh~~~

Work and classes is only my priority now~
Work smart, work hard, earn more and spend more..... =.=
So that we can stimulate our country's economic problem =pppp

End with loves ❤

XOXO

Depression.

2010-10-24T19:45:00.001+08:00

Ohh damn Im started to hate my blog... My blog is dead. Haha I think some of my friends or reader think that I am a superb pessimistics gal ever ~ Im tired of emotion, tired of being nice and to good to someone which that dont even wanna to care about it.. tired of everything... Why? I know I lucky enough to breathing here... to blog now ... but I really hate October seriously... and my recent life...

Just came back from a friend's bro wedding brunch, a worst brunch ever in my life...
Honestly I dont feel wanna go there before a few days the brunch starts ... but because of her, she's wanted me to go there, and I thought I would know some new friends there and go there to get rid my bored since my weekend is like shit...
But... before that I know it was nothing good for me to go there... I know I will see someone that I dont wanna see.. His bro, his parents and his new girlfriend. Sounds great? I met him damn a few times after we broke up... Is this fate or what? God plan these shitz that I dont feel I cant handle it? I really dont wish to see him anymore.. Because whenever I see him... sighhh I dont ever feels good... Im weak... Just one word SIGH.
Sometimes I wonder why I am so S.T.U.P.I.D to decided to go there? Yes, I know I'll see him... I wanna pretend Im fine now but I seriously feels awful... but the awfulness wasnt that pain like lastime does...

Ahh can I be stronger please... sigh....
Im tired of heart broken, dissapointment and sadness...
Friendship problems.. which is marks a darkest experience in my life...
I have only my family and my girls which is the precious thing in my life... but they seems to leave me without any reason.. guess Im belongs to loneliness?
Im tired of loneliness.. Sometimes I wanted some friends to stand by for me when I really really needed them but there's no one there for me... Is this very difficult to achieve? ....
My friends... all of them like leaving me one by one... and I felt so bad... so bad which no one couldnt understand how bad is my feelings... and Imma a type that dont no how to express my feelings in a right way... Can someone who cares about me tell me what's going on?? Can please take me away the sorrow and bring me to a better place?

Sigh. I dont feel wanna continue to write caused everything now is so deep down for me...
Just hope everything will be fine very soon.. and I have to balance back my emotions...
I couldnt let the life like these right? Bad and good also happens in a some day why dont we go for the good one?

Screw negativity ~~~ Screw loneliness~~~

爱情真的好难。。可是友情更难更心疼。。。

2010-09-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

♥ 把自己弄到很忙碌超级工作狂是失恋最好的麻醉药。。。

其实也不算失恋吧，哈哈那些只是过渡期。。。

经过这些经验和过去真的让我看透了一些。。。
觉得很可惜和遗憾其实我真的没有努力真正地好好付出过。。。可是想努力的时候，不是我不想努力而是没有机会了。。。他已经很遥远了。。。

哈哈不懂为什么会那么感性。。
之前可以很享受单身的生活。。以前嘛。。。现在不一样了，真的很想谈恋爱哈哈~

可是知音难寻啊真的不容易也不想随便谈一场恋爱。。。
就顺其自然吧~ 哈哈
现在的男生真的都好挑剔哦长的肉肉的我又不是很出众的。。。都不会看上眼吧
喜欢的都不属于我的唉~ 不喜欢的就一直来哈哈烂桃花多的是。。。 =.=

朋友们都有自己的生活，所以我也知道不能常依赖她们。。。
有时觉得好无助寂寞啦。。。又跟些朋友发生点小事。。所以感情就疏远了一些 =(

有时觉得我很想要些知心的朋友就够了跟她们我也很开心 ^^
所以恋爱就暂时丢在一旁现吧 =D

不知为什麽今年过到好快啊已经要到年尾了。。。很快地就要迎接圣诞节然后就新年了哈哈所以今年所定好的目标要好好地加油完成它咯 ^^

好啦都是做好自己的本份是最好的了，努力工作赚钱哈哈

大家往最好最明亮的未来加油吧~~~

❤ It's for the better.

2010-08-30T05:28:00.003+08:00

❤ Things that I wanted to achieve till end of year 2010 =)

I just dont wanna waste few more months when comes to 2011 ^^

1) Always be optimistic and postive. Yea, been really down after a broke up almost 3 months ago.. I dont want this kind of me, I want a better, rasional, and find back myself of who I am, a real me, an optimistic girl lastime that I used to. Im tired and sick of myself been suffering because of a guy, he just dont deserve be an issue of my life. Wasting my precious time ~ Ha!!!

2) Work harder and put more effort as much as possible. I've already give up my diploma, Im kinda a lil guilty for not study hard when in college life. But finally I found the thing that I really wanted, really happy to learn many new skills about beauty and fashion make up, my new friends and assignments there. I've gained a lots of priceless and wonderful experience. I wanna work really hard for my make up course though Im going to grauduate soon. =) Hair styling and nail course will be very soon.

3) Lose at least 5kg =p Yea, I know I've been repeated for damn many times to lose weight but it just doesnt make it happen arghhh ~ Blame myself for being a food lover and lazy to exercise. This time hmm.. I dont no whether can make it suceed but I do really wanna try this time ^^ Feel free to jog, swim or move a little more to burn some excessive fats =p Try to eat less high carbs and high sugar and salt food T.T Just to boost up my confidence. =D

4) Save money!!!!! Ahhh I know I cant make it this at all~ Tried and tried many times but failed!!! Cosmetics, heels, outfits and everything nice just killing me soo much!!!! I cant even control myself to get these all !!! Sigh.

5) Self reflection. Sometimes I do feels that I have a lil problem to communicate with people. Am I too talkative? complain a lil too much? Can someone just tell what's my problem? So that I can have the chance to change? Yea, and I do really what's my problem and Im trying ny best to change it. I seriously need some people to wake me up =) But please dont give me alots of pressure.. caused no one's perfect right? Agree?

6) A more healthy better lifestyle. Sigh... I think my life kinda used to wake up at night and sleep at noon. Sometimes when I forced myself to sleep early, but my brain will automatically wake myself up in midnight, which is 4-5am =.=lll Arghh what happened larh??!! Make me so suffer to wake up in the morning when off to class and work =(

7) Be brave, and try new things. I wanna have more courage in everything. My work, my diet plan, make new friends, in love matter and be smart and try new things that I never ever or havent really put effort or succeed before =) I just want to open wide my eyes and mind to accept and learn many new things for a brighter future =) hahahaha

Hmmm I think that's all? ^^ Hohoho~ Update my status here ya =) Yea, Im kinda fine now. Im glad that I could find back myself of who am I really =)
I feel great~ Needless to care so much like lastime, to miss someone so badly and suffer whenever, wherever or whatever when thinking of him... I can whatever I want to, can really concentrate on my own things and be myself all the time wootz~~ ^^ These are the things that what I do really enjoyed while being single =DDDD
But when I thinking back the memories we had before.. I were just realize that we were really wrong in the begining... I shoudnt.... ah fine... everything is a past already~
But thanks for your memory, I do really felt being loved lastime, I really do =)

Anyhow, really hope myself can achieves the resolution that I written above ^^ Gonna try my best~~ Wakaka ❤

Wish every of my reader have a nice day ahead and all the best in everything =)

Excuse my english caused I do really did not write any summary or eassay after I give up my diplomas =/ Hahas

Loves.

XOXO

加油~

2010-08-28T00:15:00.002+08:00

还是原来那个我
不过流掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了想到快疯掉死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的借来的都该还掉

我总会把你戒掉 Oh WU Oh

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人要每个人的孽障因果
会有什么什么都没有
早点看破才看得见以后 OH
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了想到快疯掉死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的我总会把你戒掉

A very suitable me song ^^
Sharing is caring weeee ~

还是一样。。。

2010-08-08T07:09:00.001+08:00

♥ 已经两个月了，很为自己开心我真的学会了放弃，但那伤痕还是在。。。

以前的我去了哪？为什么我就是偏偏输在感情上。。。
还以为自己真的放下了每次都提醒自己要坚强向前走可是有时觉得自己还在原地踏步。。

回亿一直还在才那短短的半年就可以让我那麽地脆弱
有时候我真的很恨自己明知道事情事实已经摆在眼前还是会默默地想他

人真的可以那麽地恐怖吗？那么地善变？那么地潇洒？真的可以当一切都没发生过？
以后我真的不懂得去面对了
还以为他是不同的男人永远都是一样？可以把我从黑暗中从新相信
可是你最后还是你那麽残忍潇洒地推回我那黑暗那我不想在面对的地方。。。

以前的他我喜欢的他已经渐渐地消失了。。。。他已经不是那个他了。。。

可是怀念比失去还难受你懂吗？也许你真的永远都不懂

我真的真的很讨厌emo!!!
那开朗的我呢？乐观的我呢？
为了这样而失去自我

可是还是得告诉自己要过得更好
最近很庆幸地我还是很开心跟姐妹朋友们感情比以前还要好
工作也多了认识的人也广了钱也赚更多
日子慢慢地恢复了自我
只是有时去到哪里很好的东西和地方还是会淡淡地很想和他分享
可是他已经不属于我了。。

听说你过得很好可是爱玩了很多这真的是你吗？你以前那工作狂症呢？
自由来换那失恋的代价你真的相信值得吗？

也许爱真的不一定要拥有他大家过得开心就好了
恨你可是还是会默默地怀念你
还是谢谢你让我长大了我学会了放弃学会更懂得爱自己和爱人。。。

只能怪我们太早相遇了不够成熟只好接受

爱和关心我的人对不起
我又再次发作了只有部落客能让我抒发我先在的心情

这是所谓人生该经历的过程吧我只能把你放在我心中

给我一点的时间我真的会好的。=)

Only time will heals everything.

2010-07-14T03:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm already been one months more that I didnt bck here and update a lil. Hmm recent life wasnt that bad though a lil dull but trying to fulfill life with perfect moments..

Yeah, been single for more than a month already.. time passes rly fast.. glad that I started getting used to it already... not that I want to show that Im available or what, just felt that myself growing up a little, learn to cope with those heart broken thingy already, moving on and looks thing with wider sight just trying to give myself some time to let go~

Hmm been work kinda often to make myself busy and trying to detract myself from thinking too much while too free when alone =( Sound abit pathetic? hahaha that's life I guess ^^

Anyhow, I will move on and move on~~~ And work hard and achieve what I want in the future ^^

Gambateh Tracy ~

Wish me luck <3

~~p/s: 对不起。。我还是默默地想着你~~~

Confessions of another broken heart =.=

2010-06-10T09:07:00.001+08:00

♥ Life's always unpredictable, and I know have to face unexpected thing everyday...
Ohh oh my love has been diminished nature and wait for another one to hurt me wahahaha XD So that, I can grow up and being careful and pandai sikit nextime =.= wtf.

Hmm broken hearted and currently back to the previous life.. I think the previous life suits me more, I really dont no to cope with love matter well I guess.. haha its not my problem though, problem was the JERK aka BASTARD and that's a part of my life have to suffer a little so that I can grow up and learn lessons =) Hmm I should think in a good way...

Sometimes I do wonder why other of my friends they could being in a relationship for more than 3-4 years or more... and why I cant meet one.. but mine, hmm perhaps we're still young larh... those who were older said ' Aiya, still young larh, choose wisely and it's just an experience.. ' Yeah, still young ma, what for have to be so serious ohh?!! Let it be naturally bah =)) I admit Im a lil playful though, but I know what's not to do and what we should do. The pity one is the one who falls and into deeper the one who hurt deeper... ahhh why my life should always suffer like this =( damnit ~~

Thanks to all my friends that been comfort me, Im glad that Im not alone, they are always stand by for me =) Im blessed =DDD
KP, Samuel, Mei, Elaine, Cindy, Karlmen, Michael and more~ Thank you so much =))))

But anyhow, thanks for happiness that he brought to me... Romance is just an experience, there's still long road ahead~ Love is a part of life that we should face to, so be tough and strong because we always live for ourselves but not for others. Should concentrate on my career, my beloved friends and my beloved family members more onwards ^^ There're still many things and goals waiting for me to do and achieve it =)

Haha sorry for being so... hmmph, forgive me la, I will feel better after I type all of my feelings here =)
And Im feel bad for making my friends and my family worried me aikss~
I will be very fine soon ^^ Gambateh everyone~

Life's still goes on, so be tough to face hardship caused its will makes you stronger and appreciate what you have now ^^

And of course, cheers to all who single out there ~ smoochhh ~

Tata.
Loves.

XOXO

太在乎，就什麼也得不到…

2010-06-07T21:56:00.003+08:00

愛情不像讀書考試一樣，對於一個人的追求

並不是你付出的越多，得到的回報就會越大

如果把你的給予當橫軸，別人的回應當縱軸畫成曲線

你會發現邊際遞減率在一個定值之後以非常不可思議的速度上升

為什麼，我每天打電話對她噓寒問暖，得到的只是冷漠的回應？

為什麼，在一群朋友出去玩的時候，她總是對我特別疏遠

為什麼，即使我竭盡所能的對她好，卻仍無法在她心中擁有一點應得的地位？

我說：「太在乎，就什麼也得不到

當你太在乎一個人的時候，你的心裏能裝的下的東西就變少了

滿腦子想的都是她，無時無刻都在想能為她做些什麼

於是，你喪失了自我，成為一個為別人而活的人。

你不再有自己的生活，不再有和對方不一樣的地方

每說一句話，你都小心翼翼，期待能夠有好的響應

每做一件事，你都考慮再三，希望她能夠被你感動

然後你會發現，聊天的話題好像變少了，相處不在像從前當朋友般的開心自在

她隨口說出的一句話，網路上的一篇心情，可以牽動你全身的神經，有時讓你開心不已，

但大部分的時候卻是讓你魂不守舍一整天。

隨之而來的，是她開始感受到壓力

生命是一種很容易適應變化的東西

如同把雙腳泡在熱水中，不一會兒就從有點燙變成舒適的溫暖

一開始你對她好，感覺是很鮮明，很強烈的
會很開心，會很感激

R但如果頻率太高，強度太大

就好像坐在按摩椅上太久一般

舒服的感覺不見了，

取而代之的是想要好好靜一下的需要。

如果這時還繼續強求下去

最後的結局就是分手甚至被討厭。

"欲擒故縱才是最高明的技巧"

大概大家聽到耳朵都爛了吧

你知道，我知道，可是就是做不到。

沒有辦法不對她好。

當我們越是在乎一個人的時候，越難拿捏自己的分寸

不是對她好到無以復加，就是賭氣強迫自己疏離耍自閉。

所以，最簡單的方法，就是不去在意

對自己好一點，努力追尋自己的理想

不斷的充實自己，為自己的將來做準備

功課不夠好嗎？去圖書館多K一些書吧

人長的不夠帥嗎？去健身房把自己變成陽光型男吧

嫌自己口才不佳，進對應退不夠圓滑，那麼參加社團磨練一番吧

這些事情，夠你忙的了然後，把她放在你心中的優先順序的第二位，甚至第三位

會發現，一切都變簡單了

不是說兩個人就一定會有結果

而是你開始可以跳脫這個泥沼，用更客觀精準的眼光

看待彼此之間的關係

不再動不動就心情低落，不再被對方牽著鼻子走。

因為你知道，世界不是由她構成的。

即使失敗了，也還有很多值得去追尋的目標。

然後，珍惜兩個人相處的時光

在一起的時候，可以用盡全部的力氣去對她好，讓她如沐春風

而平常的時候，則是為自己的目標付出百分之百的努力，不為了別人，只為了自己。

很輕鬆的，你不用在煩惱什麼時候該對她好，怎樣增加相處的機會

順其自然，你絕對會被珍惜，而不會被當作理所當然。

最後

成功了，恭喜，有情人終成眷屬。

失敗了，有點遺憾，也許是不適合，或許是沒緣分。

但無論如何，你都是贏家。

因為你又成長了 ^^

p/s: I really should be tough and strong =)) Remember, live for yourself, but not for others~~

Gambateh everyone ^^

Life's like a competition~

2010-05-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

♥ Hello peeps~ Been really long time didnt come up here to update already ^^ Miss me?

Hmm lets talk bout my recent course first, Im glad I didnt choose the wrong path of my future..

I do really enjoyed every single moment during my class, my friends there, teachers there.. They do really makes an important part of my life ^^
st a little upset caused I get any good result of my make up competition on March. But at least I didnt lose anything, I did learned things, know what's my mistakes and focus it and improve on my problems =)

Me and my model of the day. Janice <3 She's pretty~

Natural make up. Hmm blusher it's a lil too much and the base doesnt looks clean and clear like porcelain skin =(

Night make up. Aiks, I really so careless to choose dramatic fake eyelashes for this make up, then it turned out so fashion and forced to change, so overall I dont have enough time to do this make up well =(

Fashion make up for Diva Gala Party <3

Me and my model =)

Hmm most probably I wish I can graduate my make up course end of this year, after that I will go for nail or hair course to pursue my dreams and look for a full time job to pay my course fees =)

Relationship? Hmm everyone knows love can make people goes blind. I really blind folded ahh =/ Almost been with him almost 6 months already, time passes so fast.. happy moment ends really fast but sadness needed much time to get through with it.. I know being together is aint easy, have to tolerate, understanding...

We did argued for almost a month, it's another part of hardship between us, lastime we did passed every hardship sucessfully but this time.. it's really a tough thing for me...

p/s: Sorry dear, I know Im being over-reacted recently, thinking too much caused us more problems, and pressure on you work... been really upset.. I born with a senstitive heart, I know im selfish sometimes, afraid of being hurt.. but never care bout your feelings... Hopes everything will back to normal and ILY and IMY so much~~ sigh =(

Time passes really fast, just like a blink of an eyes, it's coming to June already... another chapters of my life..

I know I had been concentrate on my relationship a lil much... There's still left many things for me to do, my future, my dreams, my job and my studies.. and my friends and family...

I felt that I've been neglected them... I wanna try my best to focus more on my own things =)

Gambateh Tracy Teo ^^ Be good to yourself, because we deserves it!!

Till here.

Hope every of my readers here happy and healthy always =)

Loves.

XOXO

You're my everything =]

2010-03-01T15:34:00.004+08:00

♥ Dear blogger, I came here to express my feelings...

Things that couldnt hardly split it from my mouth to tell someone...

I always remember all the ups and downs and those happy moments that being with you...

Thanks for everything that we had been through, I felt being loved and appreciated ^^
Thanks for your toleration, kindness, caring, understanding and advices. Honestly, I had been long long time never concerned and care by someone like you... after been through previous darkness.. I always sleep late and didnt really care my routine of my life, you said it's very unhealthy to used to being sleep late always; you said I had being over headstrong and sturborn in everything, have to tolerate, care and respect each other caused it's no longer one person thing anymore.... ; you said we shoudlnt waste time to quarrel and blame each other, because life is too short for us to waste time on those unnecessary thing...

Anyhow, I like you to being so long-winded, complaining and talking too much about me... because I know you care about the relationship so much that I thought...

Sorry caused I couldnt be a nice girl that you wishes for, because of my headstrong-ness, my attitude, sorry and forgive me caused I felt like I had already used to my single life previously, I like to being myself, a little selfish and sturborn... do whatever I want, go wherever I want...
But I know I have to change when I met you.. I have to be tolerate, respect, listen, care and understand your feelings...

p/s: But Im having a little problem that I started looking for some freedom, sometimes I questioned myself to why freedom being so important to me... when I looked back the previous me, I realised that... hmm perhaps I used to put myself instead of someone else... Lastime I used to being independent and freely deciding on my decisions, chasing my dreams and goals... but everything seems changed... but its okay... for the first time I met you, I know I wont be regret to love you... hmmmmmmphhh =/

But I needed some time alright? =)

Aikss~~

XOXO

I believe.

2010-01-31T20:38:00.009+08:00

♥ Hello my readers, Im back for blogging again...

Sorry for been MIA for so damn long... I dont have the passion to blog like lastime I used to, blog everything that wanna to share to the whole world ^^ Anyhow, I will try my best to try to blog more ya, wont quite blogging but just still open it for public to read it =)

Hmm everything goes quite well frm end of 09' to 10'... nothing really bad happen at least =)

But this time I signed in here, to blog bout him.... =)

Thanks to him. I started have hopes, faith and get out from darkness in love since I met him...
If you know me really well or been follow my blog for long time.. Imma such a goddamn foolish, lost, pessimistics, emo and loser person lastime... most of my close friends said that Im a really dark-minded person... everything have to think from the bad and being so pessimistics for long long time...

We started to being a very very normal friend. We know each other from friend's friend. We didnt talk much at all but just having fun together in the club with his friends. Hmm after the night, thanks to facebook =) We still keep in touch as acquaintance in fb. We went out for drinking session after he finished his work... of course, I didnt have any special feelings but friend to chat many things with him for the first time. And yet, he's already not available that moment. Nah, really have nothing for the first time, but after the chat, my first thought for him was.. '' Hmm he's really a nice, funny and ambitious guy. And he's very good to his gf...''

I always treated him as a normal friend, we chat almost everyday in msn either sms, met few times in a week... hmm so weird for a normal friend right? It was nothing at the begining but as times goes by... I think I started have feelings to him like I never used to be like others. But I know I shouldnt do that caused he's not available at all =[
Somtimes, I wonder why he treated me like this... a little too much for being a normal friend...
Too much of time to chat and hang out together for being a normal friend already...
I always used to comfort him when he has problems with his relationship, his stressful work and more. Try to pretend as a real buddy for him to accompany him... I just try to do whatever for a friend that makes him feel happier... How stupid I am for lastime... ='(((
I tried to give up and just wanna to treated him as a sincere good friend... For me, perhaps you dont have to have him to be your love ones, I dont want to ask for more, tell him what I feel to him.. As long he's happy, everything already was worthwhile for me ^^ At least, I have a really nice and funny friend, a person good to chat with =) No pain, no gain =p

On the last day of 2009 and first day of 2010, we hang out for club with his friends and had alots of fun... but the most memorable thing is, I had the first kiss (eventhough it was on my cheek but I was melting already that time... aww~), first breakfast, the first one and I wanted to meet so bad on the first day of year 2010... I know Im stupid and shouldnt to think bout that much, but it was a good start and memorable day for me =)

But until he has major problems with his relationship... broke up and back to single...
I did felt bad and sad for him... but he said he have to and let go for his work and future...
We did getting closer and closer after the broke up, met each other more and more...
Until the day we hang out for club with a lots of friends... I felt a weird feelings that he never used to treated me like before... even his buddies and my babes and dudes asked is it he's my bf hahaha XD After club, he sent me home and we chat alots again in his car.......
He told me everything bout his feelings towards me... bla bla bla... we blushed, we smiled and we laughed....
I dont want say bout it more la hahaha =)

Sometimes I do felt bad for his ex, feel upset because he could let go so easily for his past, worried that he might hurt, dissapoint or maybe worse, betrayed me some day... worried that he misses his ex or whatever shit and crapsss...

I just dont want to care that much anymore...

Well, I can't denied that I feel so goddamn nice during the period that I'm spending with him. I'm lucky to have him, that I willing to sacrifice for him... lalalala =p

I don't mind to be teased by people around me, criticize it, I don't mind people I know said that I'm a fool, for loving him, I felt so different when I'm being him, just feel like giving him all the best of mine... Really...

I know we couldnt change or get whatever you want to, but I will try my best to be a girlfriend =)

I just want to appeciates and cherish the day that I've spent with him.. Though my past gave me alots of sorrow, unhappy experiences, and thinking too negatively... Sometimes I know Imma a little selfish, realized that Im bad and couldnt help you anything but giving alots trouble, but I'll promise, I will appreciates what you had did to me and again, I'll promise to be a good girlfriend, ^^

Loves.

XOXO

Year End Sales is L.O.V.E !!!!!

2009-11-27T20:33:00.012+08:00

♥ Yes, wanna come back here and update some good things to share here ^^

Muahahaha year end sales everywhere, Im glad and statisfied what I bought for 2009 Year end sales ^^ Shopping is the best therapy to relief stresssss XD Of course, the spree will still goes on...

Went Laneige Workshop with Cindy my Diva's senior at The Gardens Hotel today=]

Laneige were really generous to give out many nice gifts and I do really love Laneige product, especially their Snow cystal dual foundation and their skin care range =)

Bought their sunblock and this was what I got for the workshop =) Im glad that we got an extra Ultra-Hydro Cream Ex from Laneige to being the early bird to purchased the ticket =]

Currently I work for Hada Labo which is a new skin care range from Japan and it was hit product in Japan!!! Until now, their famous lotion still sold out in every 4 seconds ^^ I got this all range for samples and tester when promoting to customers and of course I can keep it and use it everyday haha =)

Girls who has dry skin there, please go and try these product. They're really good for dehydrated skin ^^

On 26th,

Forced to skipped class caused I had such long time didnt spent time with my friends already, normally I used to attend classes and work and it's quite hard to hang out for such many peoples that day.

Karaoke -> Drinking, shopping and chit chatting session -> Movie -> Dinner -> Bar session =]

Bar session at Werners which is intro by WK. I still prefer club though hahaha XD

Chuuuuu~

Mei and KP =]

Camwhored during free time in k-room =]

Some movies review,

2012

Rate for 4/5.

It wasnt good of what I had expected =] The story wasnt really that interesting. But I was quite impressed with the graphics and the world's collapse stuff. After I watched this movie, just felt that we have appreciates everything what we have now =] Try our best to save the earth as fast as we could?? But I wonder it's true or not for the year 2012 and the world is really end??? And yea, we know that everyone's gonna die.... Who knows? Muahaha

*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*

The Twilight Saga - New Moon

Rate for 4.5/5.

I guess everyone who knows me really well of Im a big fans of Twilight saga hehe =) I had been waiting for this movie for too long =(( Anyhow, we know that the book is always better than the movie and yes, the book is really much more 1000X better than the movie. I love the Volturi part the most ^^ Everything was just perfect caused it was almost the same of what I had pictured when I was reading the book. What I had 'gg.com' was the ending part...... it was like... =.=lll

Overall, Im satisfied and enjoyable to watch ^^ perhaps it's due to my severly low expectations?! hahaha XD

Waiting for the next Twlight saga- Eclipse... ZZzZzZzZzzzzzzz One year to go...

Anyway, I am lazy now already =)

Smooooch ~

p/s: I really have to save my wallet already.... Im overspent for this month~ Ahhh T.T Damn you, Tracy Teo.................

XOXO

Been Mia long long time~

2009-11-22T01:43:00.003+08:00

♥ Really paiseh here caused had been away for quite long time ^^

Wakaka~

Because you know larh, there's only 24 hours a day,

Because I have to attend classes every weekdays and work almost every weekend,

Because there're parties if I had already invited,

Because I have to catch out many updates like facebook, blogs, youtube etc,

Because I have to spend some time to shop and catch up any sales and nice thingy around KL,

Because I have to rest and spend my own time more on updating blog here =)

And lastly, because I am lazy sial muahaha =D

Okay, updates a little bout my recent life and what happened these days =]

Ohh finally, Tracy Teo started already tired of clubs after been club non-stop for past few months... Been stop for 3 weeks but because of my damn itchyness and born to party I guess, couldnt stop myself away from clubs if there's any invitation XD

And now, I think I should visit club at least once per week... err can say to 'quench' my thirst and really enjoy the peoples there =]

Ahhh I really overspend for this year =((( It's killing me eh, luckily I used to work part time when free and during weekend to earn some pocket money =] I really had to put much more effort on spending already sighh =(( What to do, girl is born to shopping also wert weeeeeee ^^

Gonna try my best, to record my daily on what I had already spent everyday....

Hope it's gonna work for me =]

Really been addicted to 'boil' drama almost everyday, pp live have unlimited shows and movies to watch and love to updates youtube everyday to watch make up tutorial to boost up my skills and passion on my make up course. Gonna work very hard and appreciates every single moments what I had been for my course and Im glad that I really found what I want for my career already ^^ Thanks again to my dad, love u <3>

Haha really dont no what to write here already =] I think I'll just stop here ^^

If wanna updates bout me, just keep update and follow me in facebook and msn will do peeps =)

Take care

Loves.

XOXO

Fuckin' Cant wait!!!!!

2009-10-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

♥ I am gonna watch you very soon ^^ 26th November 2009....

New Moon- Twilight Saga~

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =D

XOXO

Im back~ =)

2009-10-25T23:08:00.009+08:00

♥ Hello Im back =) Just really miss my blog and have a little mood to update here hehe =)

Miss me? I had been away for hectic and look for a fuller life, to attend classes every weekdays and work every weekend.... Urghhh it's good to being busy... aikss I need some break some days =((( I miss karaoke, clubs, musics, movies and outing with friends, dudes and babes and more.

OKay, it's time to update already...

My 19th birthday party... errr not to mention is a 'party', it's just a small gathering with my close friends... hmmm overall... at least it's better than my 18th bday =((( haih...

Ohh but thanks to Des, Sam and Justin and friends to bought the bday cake for me =) I am soo happy cz I have 2 bday cake this year ^^ (just so you know, I dont have a really nice bday celebration... until now, but nevermine... )

First, we had a pre-birthday celebration at Maison which planned by another bday boy- Jun Wen... hmm but due to some problems, at last we decided to celeb at MOS Euphoria... which I wish to celeb at there more than Maison =) Haih... it was a long lame story....

Honestly, I didnt expect much for this year bday cz usually I dont have a proper bday celebration before... but suprisingly, Justin called and asked me to go for drinking and poker session before my bday which is at 18th of October at Dolphin which located at Pandan Indah.

Though it's just a mini gathering with my usual babes and friends, hmmm I am happy cz there's still have people remember my bday... ahhhh really pathetic right? =((

Anyhow, thanks to KP, CM, Justin and WK again =]

Thanks for the cake ^^

Hehehehe XD

Sorry those photos from MOS had already gone since I had already reformat my pc =((

Pics from clubbing night at Barcelona =)

Date: 2 Oct 09

Groupie pics =)

My babes and dudes =))) Weeeee

Taken almost 100 plus pics but these all the best one =)))

And recently I was really addicted to collect sample from different skin care or cosmetics brand =) No doubt, I do really really love them hehe ^^

Etude House, Clinique, Kiehl's, Laneige, Lancome, Loreal, Vichy, Skin Food, The Face Shop, Uriage and more hehehehe XD So excited when Im looking them XD

Show off some pics of my love, my lovely precious cosmetics and skin care products =]

AHHhhh my lovely collection =) My skin cre and cosmetics ^^

With all the samples, some sheet mask and gel mask, my fake eyelashes collection, varieties colours of nail polishes and my daily skin care routine =)

My cosmetics bags, lip care, some samples, MAC and Callas loose powder, MAC compact powder, used eye fake eyelashes, lip glosses, eye brow pencils... and the pics will do the talking =)

Sunblock is a must for me, make-up remover, brush set, make-up base, skin79 bb cream and hair spray.

I love them soooo much ^^

END.

XOXO

Helllo =)

2009-10-07T01:03:00.006+08:00

♥ I am not dead yet just lazy XD

Yeah, really had been for quite long time I think I started used to update only 1-2 posts in a months caused just so you know I am busy and lazy to update here =) My usual daily routine- Work, attend classes, sleep, eat, drink and did enjoy a little time with my babes and dudes.

Aikss cant wait to get my salary, caused I didnt shop for so long time already ><'

More clothes and shoes XD

I really wanna get this but dont no it's whether I should anot at this time...

Im still not pro yet it's unnecessary to get this for my own collection =(( and it's a lil pricey for me T.T

Urban Decay Book of Shadows Vol.II

Ahhhh I really wanna get this... but honestly, I have already the MAC ones and the colour is kinda similar though... but you know I love everthing made for limited edition, it was just so tempting and comes with their bestseller eyeshadows and the primer portion~

Should I order this or not??? Worth?

The price is around rm220.

Make Up For Ever Camouflage Concealer Pallete.

Rm170 plus I think, havent check the real price in Msia. I do really need a concealer pallete with different colour of corrector in it. Green for covers redness and pink for covers very dark eye circles and yellow ones as usual =) Im looking for a cheaper alternatives too... I cant afford that much =((((

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Alright, update my recent life here too =) Gonna away and leave my blog dead for awhile after this post ngek ngek~

Freeze. Jevel. Tracy

I am really happy to know you guys ( Desmond, Sam and Jun Wen) and babes =)
Thankssss for everything =) and friendship forever weeeeeeeee~ =D

I also started used to my new course too... love my teachers and students there, they're really niceee and friendly and since most people of the academy are girls, we do chat and gossips alots hehehe XD

Speakin' to my freelance job, I do really wants more job and more jobs =( Caused I dont think it's comfortable and bad for me to ask much pocket money from my dad already... Have to be more independent and save money already T.T Wish me luck yahhhhhhhh XD

Okay, there's all of the post =)

Lazy liao and byeeeeeeeeeee

XOXO

Life's miserable sometimes =(((

2009-09-26T01:57:00.004+08:00

♥ Recent =)

Ohh I had been a lots of clubbing recently hehe =) Duh, sometimes I need some entertainment and outings to keep my life more 'busy' XD

I think I will be leave my blog dead for awhile, just nothing to post and updates here, maybe it's because my blog is really boring =/
sorry...

Outing with CY =) We had been watched alots of movies these days, though I hate you sometimes haha but I just dont want you to get hurt anymore okay? Love you though haha XD

Quattro night with Teng =)

I do always kiss her when I got tipsy, dont no why haha XD

Euphoria MOS , again.......

Wish you happy bday to you again Chooi Mei, sorry cant get to take a pictures with her, both of us were busy I guess haha =)

The usual gangs <3

We did had alots of fun that night woohoo~

Thanks to B.E.P- I Gotta Feeling XD

And I have a great movie trailer to intro here =) Jennifer's Body.

Goshhhhh I cant wait to watch this movie... Megan Fox is ohhh so hot!!!!

Damn this time she act as a dark, sexy and hot vampires =)

Gonna watch this movie very soon =)

Can wait to work for next coming Beauty Fair again =) 9th-12th October ^^

Loves.

XOXO

Movies review.

2009-09-14T02:13:00.001+08:00

♥ Movies Review- The ugly truth.

Awww it's a nice movie I would say =) It's more into comedy and romantic.

I like to watch Katherine Heigl's show after watched 27 dresses long time ago.

Too bad some 'parts' were already cut, just so you know we're in Malaysia marh... what to do =='' ishhh

Synopsis:

A romantically-challenged morning show producer (Katherine Heigl) is embroiled in a series of outrageous tests by her chauvinistic correspondent to prove his theories on relationships and help her find love. His clever ploys, however, lead to an unexpected result.

(Source: Cinema Online)

Overall I would I rate for this movie- 4/5 =)

Most of the girls would love this movie I think hehe.

p/s: Aikss I want to watch The time traveler's wife and New Moon sooo badly!!!!!

XOXO

Random Updates.

2009-09-13T15:45:00.005+08:00

♥ Hello peeps =) Sorry for lacks of updates, been busy untill lazy to update here.

Been busy for my new make up course, I do really love my course sooo much, though it's still a new enviroment for me and still needed some time to used to it.

After started my new course, I truly realized that learning and train as a professional make up artist is aint that easy... still need more experience and pratices to improve =)

Im so grateful now caused I got what I really wanted now. Thanks again dad =]

I will work really hard on it ^^

Since Im soo darn lazy so just let the pictures do the talking =]

Date: 21 August 09

Time: 01.23am

Venue: MOS, Euphoria

Already bored of MOS already, just like my second home wahaha XD

Date: 4th Sept 09

Time: 0038

Venue: MOS..... again =='

Date: 5th Sept 09

Time: 2300

Venue: Chilis @ Mid Valley.

Watched the stupid Final Destination 4 after that.

Date: 10th Sept 09

Time: 2307

Venue: Poppy Garden

Sienz place. Poppy isnt happening at all on thrusday, so dont go XD Saturday is the best day at there.

Chooi Yan and Chooi Mei dear =)

Money Mei =)

Abby Baby.

Us, but too bad Kit Ping couldnt make it =((((

To dearest Daigor KP,

Aikks hope you'll get soon, remember take care of your health yah =) Dont skip your breakfast anymore, at least one cup of milo okay dear? Muacks~

To CY dear,

He's not whole part of your life, just a minor part though. You still have us, your beloved parents, your classmates and your dreams and goals still waiting for you to achieve them. Dont let him to make you down. Please be strong okay? We'll always be there for you =)

Signing off. The post is only all bout short updates =)

Loves.

XOXO

Movies.

2009-09-06T04:03:00.003+08:00

Final Destination 4.

Really mengecewakan ~~

Rate 2/5.

The last few episodes of FD is much more better than this =(

Next~~ Movie- Tsunami ^^

Adore =)

2009-09-04T14:31:00.006+08:00

♥ I love love this song so much after I heard this song on the radio =) I was stunned and impressed after I heard this song =]

Didnt notice much about Joey Yung's song, but after heard this song I started really like her =)
She's really deserves to be the best hk female singer ^^

搜神记

当初肤浅得你恩宠似升仙天有眼

当真煳涂未曾发觉我该俯瞰南极快没有冰山

当初专心等你烛光晚餐从没有认识蜡烛怎样消散

当你的光环暗过世间火柴何用困在五指山

而神蹟失灵才知天大地大转得快

梦幻的生涯无非拖手逛街怪得谁

要敬拜你便没视力静观世态

忘掉谁是你记住我亦有自己见地

无论你几高身价亦低过青花瓷器

评核我自己只顾投资于爱情

困在你小宇宙损失对大世界的好奇

回味谁是你往日有甚麽品味

只要敢远飞亦能自创我的搜神记

磨练我自己做人目光高过聚散分离就凭你

相爱大不了提升演技当做戏

从前只懂情人的感动力量最珍贵

未洞悉小巷大街遍地华丽昂起头

看见世界我也会有我的气势 Woo

忘掉谁是你记住我亦有自己见地

无论你几高身价亦低过青花瓷器

评核我自己只顾投资于爱情

困在你小宇宙损失对大世界的好奇

回味谁是你往日有甚麽品味

只要敢远飞亦能自创我的搜神记

磨练我自己做人目光高过聚散分离

就凭你相爱大不了提升演技当做戏

抛开你先识去审美往后我便有自己见地

无论爱几高身价亦低过青花瓷器

评核我自己只顾投资于爱情

困在你小宇宙损失看大世界的褔气

回味谁是你往日有甚麽品味

只要敢远飞亦能自作我的烟花记

谁是我自己若然目光高过聚散分离

奉承你因往日双眼无珠不停放大你

想快乐不靠神蹟才懂创世纪

Hectic life.

2009-08-30T00:27:00.007+08:00

♥ The Recent me.

Gonna be another hectic month by the coming September =] Just full of work and attend classes T.T

Good things to share ^^

From anti-clockwise.

1) Kose Seikisho Perfect Cleansing Oil. Usually I dont fancy about cleansing oil to use to remover my make up, caused it'll give you a uncomfortable and greasy feel after you wash. But I'd give it a try after the I heard the reviews from my beauty trainee and it turned out really great =) It wont feel greasy and uncomfortable after used, but suprisingly my face felt so fresh and hydrated. Cleansing oil is the most effective to remove make up compare to cleansing water, lotion, milk or gel. Its really good for make up student which we have to remove makeups almost 2-3 times during practical. But too bad it's a lil pricey for me T.T

2) Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler. Its the best eyelash curler ever!!! It's even mentioned in the movie- The devil wears prada. Dont believe it? Please watch the movie again or google or wiki it XD

3) The beauty diary masks. Its being the most famous mask in Taiwan. I love sheet mask caused I used to put on it on my face before I sleep, so I no need to jump off from my bed to wash it off and just take it off after 20-30 mins then continue my beauty sleep. Teehee.

I purchased the whole 7 days whitening masks set to give it a try. The set included seven different types of functions and ingredients, so therefore I can try others to see the difference and choose which is the best on my skin =) Mask is a best treatment ever for the skin ^^ And its affortable~ hehehehe

4) Skin79 Gold Edition BB Cream. I dont fancy about bb cream previously caused it does not provides good coverage and feels like nothing on the skin after you apply. ( I mean is it's useless if its does not balanced your skin tone like liquid foundation does, so what for waste your money to buy it?? Right? ) But everything changed after I heard many good reviews on skin 79 bb cream and.... I was sold =='

I purchased the skin 79 bb cream and I couldnt wait to use it. After used, it was like OMG, my skin still looks good and smooth after clubbing, it does provides a good coverage too .... just so you know I used to sweat alots when club haha ^^ It's a really great substitute for liquid foundation. It's a must try for non-user =)

And I fell in love with light make up that inspired by Bobbi Brown Nude Collection.

What am I using for this look :

Foundation: Skin 79 gold edition bb cream

Concealer: TFS The Flower Dual Concealer

Powder: Callas Face Powder

Brows: Etude House 01 Earth Brown

Eyeshadow: Shu Uemura - M Brown 810

Blusher: MAC - Pink Swoon

Shading: MAC- Harmony

Highlighter: TFS Black Label 01

Eyeliner: Kate gel eyeliner - Black

Mascara: Loreal Double Extension Beauty Tubes

Lip: Nivea Essential Lip care and MAC Lipglass

Sorry for being self-obsessed recently. I just love to share good things and post whatever I want. Peace =)

Loves.

XOXO

My Make Up Case Wishlist =)

2009-08-27T22:06:00.004+08:00

♥ Imma big lover of cosmetics ^^

Couldnt resist the temptation aikkss.... Though most of them are pricey but still kept it as my wishlist, set it as a small goal for me to achieve to buy them when I have the money =) They're really good quality and many pro make up artists recommended.

My make up case wishlist :

Coastal Scents 88 Pigment set

Bobbi Brown Basic Brush Collection

* Limited Edition* BBU Palette

Love Bobbi Brown Face make up =)

Hahaha its impossible for me but I still kept it as my wishlist ^^

Bobbi Brown Corrector

This is a must for make up artist, to covers very dark circles and extra coverage.

Bobbi Brown Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner.

Its easy and smooth when apply. Many good reviews and recommended by many make up artist =)

Lancome L'EXTREME mascara.

NARS Blusher, Eyeshadow and lip gloss. Too bad there're not available in Msia =(

Aikss gonna work very hard to get this all ^^

Gambateh~

Loves.

XOXO

Fight for the future.

2009-08-23T01:54:00.007+08:00

My Love

♥ This is the hopes and dreams that she's burning her desires for so long...

Her first class at Diva Production ^^

These all products costs me rm2.5k... But still worth it though. There are my hubbies ^^

Been crazy for MAC and Shu Uemura XD I love them sooo much =]

Kose cleansing oil

Shu Uemura brush cleanser

MAC Studio Compact powder

MAC Liquid Foundation

MAC Studio finish concealer

MAC Loose powder

Shu Uemura eye brow pencils

Shu Uemura Eye lash curler * Damn I lurve this!!!!* World's best eyelash curler ^^

7 MAC Eyeshadows

5 Shu Uemura Pressed eyeshadows

MAC Blusher (Pink and Bronze)

Shu Uemura Blusher (Orange)

MAC Lipglass

But no Bobbi Brown for me? Its a bit pricey compare to MAC and Shu =(

21 pcs normal brushes. Hope to have my own Bobbi Brown and MAC brush major brush set but the prices are killing me T.T

Freebies from Mr. Moo, our beauty trainee =) Thanks, I love'em soo much ^^

Felt so happy that Mr.Moo said that I have good basic knowledge on make up. ^^ I will work very hard and keep on moving~ Gambateh!!!!

XOXO

Grace's bday celebration @ Zouk, Phuture.

2009-08-20T02:11:00.007+08:00

♥ Hello peeps =) How's ya day everyone?

I am been lazy and planning what should I do after I had started my new course. *headache-ing* Should I go for part time study and work as full time? Or should I concentrate on my course and continue my freelance project ? But I'd wish to reduce my dad's burden for paying my course fees... Sometimes I really wish that I born with a wealthy family but anyway... Just thought for fun, back to reality and move on that's what can I do now... sigh =(

Okay. Back to the topic =]

Once again, wish you happy birthday Grace Ng, Im glad to received your invitation to be your guest for your bday party =) Thanks again~

The birthday gal- Grace and me =)

Thanks to daigor- Freeze who curled up my hair for me that night ^^ Muacks~

Oppss taken by my camera this time =)

After club, headed to Vegas to join another gang of Grace's friends.

Still have a few of pics at Grace's. Will upload it after I got those pics =) So please stay tunes <3

Lovin' this dad's cute mini gadget from Mini Hp =)

That's all for the short update.

Will update for the next post vry soon =) Loves.

XOXO

Confessions Of A Shopaholic ♥

2009-08-12T15:52:00.007+08:00

♥ My Love =)

There's nothing great when comes to shopping~ hehehe

Yeah, like I said I really dont have real friend in my life, maybe can say used to it already...

Perhaps I should look into thing at the brighter way...

I shopped for all day long by myself =) It was still fun though.

Thanks Eling for accompanied me for lunch since she's work at Pavilion.

I hate to eat alone =(

I... splurged, again... ><''

Charles & Keith heels, a few of skin cre products ( I cant live without it!!! ), My Beauty Diary masks, Hair dye and some hair care products ( I cant without it too!!!) and high waist skirt for Forever 21.

Actually Mid Valley megamall would be my first place to splurge for but just so you know ( if you have notice my fb's status) I had just noticed that I loss my ATM card when Im preparing to withdraw my savings from the ATM machine.... Damn!!!! After that, I have to forced to take cab and back home to check again whether if my ATM card were left in my room =( At last, I cant find it and forced to ask for a replacement from HSBC.

Then luckily I called the stupid HSBC toll free number report to them and blocked my account. After the call, I quickly off to the nearest HSBC bank which is at Bukit Bintang branch and get my replacement back =) Of course, I got my new ATM card back and continue my shopping spree at Pavilion ^^ Despite the deduction rm12 for losing the stupid ATM card ishhh... My mum said just pretend it as a lesson for me so it does. How careless T.T

After that, went Diva Production academy to ask for more information about my make up course. And yea, Im gonna start my professional make up course at Diva Production very soon ^^

My skin care regime. Though its not those branded or well known product, but they really worked well for me ^^

Bought The BodyShop Vitamin C skin boost after I saw this beauty reviews from Emyli, http://loewemyli.xanga.com/678476689/item/

I love aquamoist toner and Deary masks very much =) Your skin feels so soft and hydrated after use and it helps your make up last longer too. Girls should try them, price are affortable too ^^

Thats it for now =)

Have a nice day everyone. Loves.

XOXO

Mun Teng's bday celebration @ MOS, Euphoria.

2009-08-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

♥ Once again, Happy Birthday to you MT ^^ lots of loves.

But I am sorry and apologized to Zhan Yit and MT's friends there, I really didnt meant it. I am just cant calm down that night...

Pictures of the night, not much of captions, Im lazy heee XD

The PESS chicks is back =)

From left. Cindy T, me, Freeze, MT, Christina D, May Kay.

Sorry for bad quality pictures, again. Lazy to bring my camera =(

The birthday gal Mun Teng =) Glad to know that you're back with your loves one.

Me and Cindy.

Damn my eyes were so dry and red that night =(((

My dearest daigor =)

The year 2007- 5 Zamrud seniors.

ZY was too free to take pictures of us haha =)

I gotta feeling that tonight gotta be a good night~~

The love birds =) Ignore me and MT's fren behind.

Honestly I dont really fancy for Chivas, prefer Henessy thou =]

I have no idea where am I looking at hahaha XD

Damn Im addicted to shop and used to splurge aikssss ==' OMFG

I hate myself to being like this, so that's why I will thought of counsellor for time and financial management. Sigh.

God bless me please =((((((((((

XOXO

Recent.

2009-08-09T01:05:00.008+08:00

♥ Update a few bits of my recent life =)

Last project- Polo Blue Fragrance Roving team.

Damn I hate to work at outdoor, forgotten to bring my sunblock and my skin tone is so dark now =(

Camwhored in the car ^^

Fatttttttt =(((((

After work, luckily our supervisor Loong passed back Bangsar and he dropped me down there and met my babes. Yes, we shop till drop at bangsar village =) Its my first time shopped at there, I dont go there often caused its inconvenience for me to go there. It's a nice place to shop there despite the hot weather out there =(

We know each other for almost 10 years =) Teng and Yan. Love you all muacks~

Camwhored again while waiting for Steffie then headed to next destiny- Mid Valley to continue our shopping spree =)

Had dinner at Sushi Zanmai, The Garden.

Sisters. They dont look alike and they're both very different on style and personality haha.

My udon with side dishes =)

My favourite Unagi and Yan's Inari sushi =)

Yan's and Steffie's Chicken fillet with rice and egg =)

After meal, quickily rushed back to home sweet home for Mun Teng's bday celebration at MOS, caused Im late and shopped too much that day haha =)

See cute or not??? Keep hugged him when I first saw him ^^ hahaha XD

I'd love babies but I hate to layan them when they're crying and making alots of trouble hee XD

Muacks~ He's sooo cute ^^

Next update- Mun Teng's bday celebration @ MOS, Euhphoria.

p/s: Sorry I still needed some time... Im sorry if I hurt you, dissappoint you... Thanks for your care =((

I am sorry.

XOXO

Addy's 22th Birthday Celeb @ Quattro and Velvet Underground.

2009-07-30T14:36:00.010+08:00

♥ I had stopped to being a kaki clubbing since I started to work for freelance, usually Im busy on weekend so mostly dont have much of energy to club except there's some important event for me =p

Yeah, to being a good friend, for sure I would attend invitation for Addy's birthday celebration at Quattro. We know each other for quite long time ago, but didnt talk and hang out much =) We still have alots of thing to talk thou ^^

Woke up early yesterday to Kelana Jaya to return t-shirt for Mimee and got my salary =) The first thing that pop-out on my mind was SHOPPING!!! hehehe XD Like every girls does =p After that, went pavilion and swang to shop a little and look for nice outfits myself =)

Bought two dresses, goodies from Watson, face power from Mimee and my monthly must-have magazine CLEO =)

Aha finally mama brought you back!!! Wanted to buy this loose face power since long long time ago- Callas Face Power. Heard many good reviews on it, so cant stop myself to bought it back =) And I started love to use liquid foundation instead of two way cake after using the face powder, this magic power really great with natural coverage and my make up really could last longer =) Still, my make up remains nice and fresh after club thou, caused I sweat alots during club haha XD And its not expensive~ Wee~ Sharing is caring XD

Pictures of the night =)

I love this floral tube =) Smooch~ just ignore my fatness...... T.T

Awww Niki's back =) Darn long time didnt club with her already.

My love =)

Damn you gal, she loses 10kg within 3 months!!!! Salute you~

Love you long long time babe XD Both of us clubbed at two clubs that night haha =) Too sienz at Zouk then changed back to Quattro =='''

Sweet gal MunMun. She's caring and nice to talk with ^^ Miss the time that we work together at Guardian haha XD

Groupie with the girls.

Eling babe. Many people said we look alike ==' I 100% dont think sooo.....

Busy dancing to burn my fats and lazy take picture with the birthday boy =) Pictures at his camera I guess...

Anyway wish you Happy 22th Birthday here Addy =)

Sorry for bad quality pictures above, suppose to use my digital camera but Im lazy to bring it out =(

First time ffk and rufuse to work for Pc fair =( Damn low pay for this year ishhhh... T.T

Starting to look for my make up and beauty course =) Wish me luck ^^

Loves.

XOXO

Obsessed.

2009-07-27T13:10:00.008+08:00

Green contact lens from GnG =)

♥ Gee, I have to update my blog now ^^ Since I have to work from 10am to 10pm for 5 days, I dont have the time to online, facebook-ing and even have a nice and proper sleep =(

Awww felt so good after finished another project again, excited and happy to know many nice friends there. Especially the 'Foo'... aikks T.T

Thou he's not really good looking and strict to us sometimes, but his seriousness on work is killin' me... He could manage everything well for the event, help us to serve problematic customer when there's lack of manpower, even he has to help the hair stylist to clean and blow dry customer's hair at the backstage... And yes, we did quite sucessful for the event and all the shampoo were almost sold out!!! haha XD

Aww dont you think he's great???!! Responsible and serious of his work...

Hopefully I have the chance to work at One U Sunsilk roadshow to work with him again =(

I think its worth for me to work at there despite the damn distance from my house to Damansara =) Just to see him again ^^

Okay back to the topic =)

Pictures during working for the event.

Brand ambassador for Sunsilk =)

Im holding the MCD drinks and fried that Ah Cheng bought for me.

From left. Suzi, me, Kar Yan, Emily, Ling and bb =)

Cute gal BB and me =)

Janice came to swang as well ^^

She's tall aikks.. and im short T.T

Pretty big eyes Kar Yan =)

Extraordinary gal that I ever seen- Suzi =)

Natasha aka Nata De Coco from Watson =)

Cutie Emily Lum =)

Angeline =)

Awww I want to dye my hair and my hair's really damaged since we have to straighten and curl our hair by styling tools for 5 days =( I need a world greatest hair treatment =( isshhh

Lazy to write anymore. Byeeeee

p/s: Trust, commitment and compromise???

Loves.

XOXO

Recent.

2009-07-21T16:58:00.008+08:00

♥ Update a little my recent life here =)

Cut my fringe and will go for a darker shade for my new hair colour. Caramel ^^

Not really satisfied with my new fringe thou, looks like a kid =(

Bought a few of affortable and useful goodies for myself =)

Really obsessed with facial masks after I had started work as a freelancer, there's alots of good and cheap masks from Taiwan, Japan and Korea =) I always trust mostly skin care product from Asia country like KOSE and Aqua Juju. Its really so comfortable and its useful for to improve the problem of insomnia during late night, caused the comfort feeling just like urging me go to sleep haha XD Have to save back my skin after been pat tons of make up with 8 to 10 hours almost everyday. T.T

And bought Asience conditioner. I love the floral scent and its thick texture, so smooth after washing and my hair seem more manageable and the spilt end of my hair is getting lesser too =) A good substitute for pricey saloon brand conditioner.

Bought a new concealer from The Face Shop. Damn regret... the concealer is so not last long and weak on water and sebum proof. I thought it'll provides hydration for my skin but turns out dry and cakey. Not worth it, which is the price for TFS is rm46.90. I rather purchase back for my previous Maybeline concealer which is cheaper and it's only cost rm 19.90 and last longer than TFS. I just love the concealer from TFS which is designed in dual usage, liquid and the cover stick. It's convenient but not really last long.

Another project for Sunsilk roadshow at Sungei Wang tomorrow Wednesday til Sunday =)

Please come and support ^^

Loves.

p/s: Is it you??... the one that I've been waiting....

XOXO

Cosmo Beaute Asia 2009.

2009-07-17T06:35:00.011+08:00

♥ This post is consider for a long long post of my blog ^^

Finally another project is ended =) I think this is the best and interesting job for me currently. Fun, exciting and enjoyable yet tiring sometimes... Have to work non-stop work and put on thick make up within 4 days haha, need to pamper my self like a diamond after this ngek ngek XD

I met a few of celebrities like Amber Chia, many potential hot models from Andrew Models ( Yeah, they're really hot and freakin tall man!!!), miss Astro like Jolene, some TV host and others that I not really sure their name but I do saw then at media before =)

Day 1

- Everyone is compulsory to come early and meet at the main entrance of the fair by 8.15am damn early and tired you know ishhh

Hate to tie my hair up. I have a big and fatty face =(

Faaaaaaaaaat. Ugly.

Cystal, Grace and me =)

Me and Cystal. Heart this gal <3>

Everything ended up normal and back home after work =)

Day 2
- Make up show by Amber Chia and models from Andrew models.

Models came so early and doing their rehearsal =) Weeeet, Amber Chia without make up, still looks nice thou ^^

Then, the show was started around 2 to 3pm. Most of us were busy that time, cant manage to watch the show comfortably. Hehe. The crowd was getting crowder after the show is begun.

Busy backstage. The male model is soooo hawt!!! His muscular body is sooo seducing~

It's Amber's turn =)

The CEO of Kai professional make up academy- Ken with Amber =)

* Clap clap clap*

Our boss and his wife, Amber Chia and others model. Our female boss Mimee is like our mother, she's always take care of us ^^ Heart her XD

Day 3

Everything goes pretty normal as well, just busy work to serve problematic customers and a few of air brush make up show by our boss =)

Day 4

Felt sooo excited caused this was the last day for beauty fair. Wahahahaha XD

Thou, we dont have really enough of time to shop and visit the whole booth of the Cosmo Beaute Fair but we did some short time lepak while the crowd was not really crowded. Of course, we shopped and crazy about those cosmetics and skin care and you can see them everywhere!!!! Ahhhh damn alots of promotion and cheap stuffs!!!!!!!!

There's a huge international make up show and competition by Aery Jo Academy. Damn those model are soooo pretty with their superb creative make up and outfit =) This really made me to boost up my passionate for make up, Im sooo proud of them~~ They're soooo stunning and attracting!!!! Many visitors keep taking photos of them =) Its really a great eye opener for me. Haha =)

All contestant are busy setting up their own model =)

They're sooo stunning right??? Hehehehe XD I bet you all will damn chun if saw them in real person haha =)

Pretty model =)

Overall, its really a great eye opener for me. Im sooo proud of those professional make up artist, they did really really well =) Since I have to work that time, so cant manage to take all of the pictures of most of the model. Soooo bad =(

And lastly, we took alots of groupie pics indeed. This is a must haha =)

From left. Grace. Joyce. Jessica. Carol and me =)

Cherish time that we have our lunch together =)

Busy us when doing the closing =)

Ohhh Carol ~~~

Lastly present our groupie pics haha =)

Dearest Mimee and us =)

Ishhhh I know I looks like a fat big at all of the photos, no doubt I admit that Im fat =) Hope I dont scare you guys off hehehehe =)

Will gambateh for my diet plan.... please wish me luck, again =(

Must rest cukup cukup for the next project =) heee

Loves.

XOXO

Love is Hurt.

2009-07-10T22:48:00.007+08:00

♥ Been lazy recently... Nothing for me to update here =)

Hmm rest and stay at home were already becoming my routine on weekdays. It's really exhausted for work the whole weekend for killin' 8 to 10 hours. Sometimes, have to attend few of interviews and training during on weekdays. I love to being busy honestly hehe... I just hate to plan to pass my free time without any reason.

Ohh recently Im really obsessed to listen all of MJ's musics and music videos, on radios, television even on the net, thou Im not his fans. Also, I started to digging up his older classic and watched his music video again. Some of the clubs I went to, his song would inevitably get the whole ambiance high when the dj busted out his old school tracks =) I used to listen his music when I was young, I grew up and knowing who he was and he's part of my childhood. This man could really dance so well =) Despite all the past that MJ has been made out to be a freak and criticize by the media. His legacy will live forever, there will never be another like him. R.I.P MJ.

Next, updates a few pictures here for thrusday Zouk, phuture night =)

Eling's friend and me at the podium.

Damn crowded ishh...

It's the first time I club at there, love the peoples there but I still prefer MOS dance floor muahaha XD A little tipsy for th whole night, keep dance to burn my fats heee XDAnd Im happy caused I loss 1.5kg in two weeks... hmmm for me its seem already a good news =) Muahahaha keep on diet-ing progress...

Still, I started to craves for starting my make up course... Dont feel like wanna work for so long aikks... Pursuing for my dreams to be a sucessful make up artist =) Speaking to my recent freelance job project, please come and visit me at Caring pharmacy at Mid Valley on weekend until 26th July to get a free one bottle of new launch collagen drink- The Beauty Formula =) Only for The Beauty Formula's facebook fans =) Join it fast !!! While stock last, only 10 bottles to give out per day. And the coming Beauty Exhibition at PWTC =) Please come and support and I will assist you with my very best hahaha XD

p/s: Never knew I would hurt like this... You're just same as others... Please dont say you really like the person, if you dont really meant it...

Loves.

XOXO

The Fear.

2009-07-06T00:47:00.006+08:00

♥ Ohh finally weekend is over... which means I had finished my weekend job =) This week, have to replace my friend's job at Mid Valley, nearby the centre court of the mall. A booth for Mega Sale redeemtion counter.

Jennifer serving the problematic customer urgh.

Doing part of closing for our booth =)

I didnt post any photos of mine, caused Im ugly when Im work =( Maybe it's because Im lacks of sleep during working hahaha XD

Coming training for beauty exhibition and fair =) Wish me luck ^^

Goshhh I need alots of money!!! I need haircut, colour my hair, clothes and stuff during mega sales XD Ishh I hate to work sometimes, its so fucking tiring and money is not easy to earn!!! AHHH

p/s: Sometimes, my mind poped out and think of it? Is it I am the one who being so choosey and doesnt wants to give any chance for myself??? Sigh.

XOXO

Clumsy Cause Im Fallin' in Love

2009-07-02T02:08:00.006+08:00

♥Ishh time flies... its July now =) Thinking back the time that I had leave my college for almost 2 months already =( Everything turns so nostalgic... I miss college so much =(

Cant believe on myself that I've done a few projects of freelance job in just 2 months, usually I dont focus much on freelance since I have to focus on my studies at the previous time. In my opinion, freelance is much more interesting and challenging compare to those part time jobs from the malls or whatever shops. Cant wait for the coming job for beauty exhibition, pc fair and Hair care roadshow =) Thou, it's tiring indeed, for standing killin' 8 to 10 hours and have to try my very best to approach and serve customers, some problematic customers of course. But on the brighter side, I did learned many working experiences and understands the society more. I learned to be more independent and manage major things on myself.

Hmm speaking for my make up and beauty course, I went to Snips academy for the hairdressing grooming master course briefing. The course is specially designed for those student who are really interested to study hair and make up and it's some kind of part time study. Unnecessary for paying the course fee caused it will be pay by government but have to pay rm900 for the first 3 months for hairdressing tools, lecturer and other grooming tools. And the class is only once a week from 7pm to 10pm.... and the whole course needed 18 months to finish it. Aikks.. feels that the stupid Snips academy like doing some stupid scam to attract those dumb students outside =( Should I apply for it? I still can take another beauty and make up course since its only one class in a week. Hmm??

Okay. Back to the topic. The last saturday poppy night. Still couldnt update yet caused all of the pics are still with Michelle's camera. Poppy is always crowded but happening place, met alots of friends there and some well-known bloggers too hehe XD Of course, we had lotsa of fun!!! But the most crucial thing is... I met him. The stranger/net friend from msn. At first, I couldnt recognized him until he told me that he's the guy that we used to chat in msn. Of course, I didnt layan him much caused I dont really keen to talk with stranger. But things turned out better after we had more conversation to each other. Anyway just nice to meet him thou =)

I miss the lovey dovey feel... And the feeling back to me nowadays =( Aikss.. Good or bad this time?? God bless me. I dont wanna get hurt again like lastime =(

p/s: Transformer 2 for tomorrow yay!!!!!!!!!

XOXO

Michael Jackson.

2009-06-26T15:15:00.003+08:00

Michael Jackson, 1958-2009

The world's greatest entertainer- King of Pop

RIP M.J.

XOXO

Sorry, I cant control my emotional mood, again...

2009-06-24T03:34:00.005+08:00

♥ Still, it's really difficult to manage that.... I just cant think on the brighter side, I did tried my very best... and this really leads me into depression and just emo, emo and emo. And I feel like crying after I finished a blogger's post that just same as the condition as mine.

I need fresh air and a relief. Haih~

Yes, I dont have any real friends... I spent most of the time on myself, sometimes it was so awful to being alone...
Hmm maybe I should look for a brighter side you see, this is called life. Perhaps I've already used to it, perhaps I born to being alone..
Why I have to deserves that much? Why me?
I've thought really deep on that... For really long time thou... (If readers really notice bout my blog) If I keep standing right the same place and being like this, the problem will not be solved and get over...

So, I try to move on... moving on...
Im not going to cry and emo in my room for whole day... or cut myself or whatsoever...
Yea, I admit I really hope that someone that I love that jump into my life wanting to love me like the way I want them to love me. Am I too desperate? Hmm... I just want to be needed, I want to be loved, I want to matter to someone. I want someone to be obsessed about me and never want to live without me.... Is it possible??

Back to reality... I know it's cruel...
Especially the time that I've decided to stop taking my course, like my future path... I have to leave everything there and start a new one. And Im not really sure and confidence if I could do better then that... But when Im thinking back, is this what I really want? Perhaps it's a chance for me to get away completely? I just cant stop to think this and that... My brain is hurting me and caused me for damn insomnia for a few nights...

I want to go back and start a new begining and I know it's impossible... I started to feel so regret...
Just hate myself, really... sigh. Damn.

Blink-folded me up. X.X
Lost and lonely.

XOXO

Friendship Remains Forever.

2009-06-21T22:49:00.007+08:00

♥ Hello =) Just came back from work, again. Thou, it's still tiring but things turned out quite fun and sillyness to work with new friends there hehe ^^

Worked at KLCC Guardian for Brands InnerShine promoter =)

Statisfied with my sales and the workers in KLCC Guardian, mostly of them are nice and helpful ^^

Had lunch together at Sakae Sushi.

All busy chit chatting XD Since we cant remember each other names, we called each other names by the brand name of the particular product.

My tempura udon. Hearts japanese cuisine =)

From left. Nivea, Sexy Girl, Loreal, Kotex, Renu and Brands. Lepak together at KLCC =)

Anyhow, still will miss you all~ Hope we still can keep in touch in msn and facebook lorh ^^

Aikss I had been bad luck nowadays, my cellphone was spoilt again!!! WTF The same case again, the water bottle in my bag just spilt out almost half of the water of my bottle and the thing is my cellphone was inside my bag AHHHHHHHH!!!! It was damn inconvenience without your cellphone around, I have to waste money to fix back my cellphone =(

Please dont happen on me again... This is the second time on me already. I want my cellphone back~ Haih... Moodless ='(

p/s: Why I have to deserves that much?? Why me?? =( haih

XOXO

Love <3

2009-06-18T03:07:00.006+08:00

♥ Yes, Im a little bored now =( There's the one and only thing that can always layan me during the late night and filled up my free time- my lappie ='(

Watch movie, chit-chatting, blogging, surfing the net etc. That's all I can do heee XD

Aikss there's still unknown when I can finish survey for my course, friends are busy layan me, busy for searching few of freelance job... working... sleeping zzz...

Hopefully I can found a nice make up and beauty school for me =)

Ahhh the New Moon movie's official poster =)

Aikss I cant wait!!!! 6 months to go~

And yes, chuck finally said I love you to Blair on the last episode of GG2 yeah!!!! So touching aikks!!! Still waiting for the new GG season 3 XD

I wonder that will Chuck and Blair still has conflicts often between on them on GG3... Please dont...

And yes, I need to release out my hectic working life... Just wanna have fun once in awhile LOL =) No offence. Still, I did always dancing in my room while Im listening to club musics heee XD *I know you want me you know I want cha* I just miss the time I clubbed with my babes... dance like there's no tomorrow and enjoyed every single moments we had together... Aww I miss them so much =( But most of them are currently busy for their studies, but I still heart you all muax ^^

Overall, I am not a party queen kay? Girls wanna have fun, sometimes =)

p/s: I need a company, sometimes maybe =( Hate to being alone everytime...

XOXO

I hate myself =(

2009-06-16T21:09:00.004+08:00

♥ Aikss finally got my weekly salary after work for Loreal =) Can pampered myself for a little ^^

Been have long time no shopping already =) Went Mid Valley and got my salary from SweetPromo Thanks =) Still waiting another one from Josh XD heee... I want shopping !!!

Aikss this damn issue still struggling on my mind!!! Why I am so FAT!!!!??

Even people wont hire me for 'specialize' job because I am FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH

Sob sob sob ='(

Hope all of those experiences will motivates me =( Dont be lazy anymore...

Lesson learned. Have to move on move on~

Please give me sometime...

XOXO

Keep Fit!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-14T23:58:00.003+08:00

♥ Oh my effing god!!!
Recent many friends said that I gained weight jor!!!
Look more chubby and piggy~
AHHHHHHHHHH why why why???
Why I cant just stop eating a little? Even just for a little bit at least... Why????
Why I am so lazy and dont exercise regularly??? Why??? AHHHHHHH

Please I need more motivation to motivates me (so called 'step' me)

No more MCD or KFC!!!! No more fast food!!! No junk food!!! No~~

No more supper!!!!

Cut down starchy food!!!!!!!!! Less carbohydrates~~~~

Exercise!!! Sit up!!! Dancing!!! Move more work more!!!

Please ~~ God bless me!!!

Let me lose my huge appetite when going for food!!!!

Stupid Secret Recipe cake!!! MCD value lunch!!!! Chocolates!!! Junk food!!!

Stupid cookies!! Stupid soft drinks!!! AHHHHH gone insane already......

God bless me ya =)

I wanna skinny and hot like Lena Fujii XD I know it's impossible...

you know you love me

XOXO

The Recent Me.

2009-06-13T22:39:00.004+08:00

♥ Workaholic

No recent pic of me lately =)

Too busy on work... and looking for a new school for my love- Beauty and make up ^^
I wanna be a make up artist for long long time =)
The passionate of beauty and make up for me will never fades, thou I felt guilty for not continue taking my marketing course.. I still love marketing, the course would benefit and helped alot for the future business field... just blame on myself who are not doing her studies well...
I did felt regret... sometimes I wanna go back but there was not the place that I belong to... I cant adjust the time back that I had started and have to move on as well =(

Still, Im still envy those friends which is pursuing their studies...
For degree and master, went overseas and study very hard to achieves their goals and looking forward for their bright future =(
Since I work in the pharmacy for few days, I know a colleague who work as a pharmacist and she finished her master for pharmacy studies. Now, she's contribute to the society and gives medical advices and needs for her patient. Geee~ so proud of her, really wish I could be like her, at least half of her is enough for me already haha =)

Ishh anyhow working is so tiring, again XD

I really cant bear with the stupid lousy service of KTM!!! Have to go to work and back home with the damn KTM... Aikks~

No one complaint to the head office of Komuter??!!! ARgh!!

Have to sleep early cz have to work tomorrow ^^
Good night people.

XOXO

Tracy's Secret Recipe XD

2009-06-10T03:22:00.007+08:00

♥ Chicken Bowties with Traditional Pasta sauce.

It's time to cook and learn from Tracy's recipe=) Hungry? Mummy not at home yet and no one cook for you? It's easy to cook and beat your hunger to fulfill your empty stomach ^^

All you need is :

1) Bowties (one of the type of the pasta)

2) Chicken meat ( It will be tastier if the chicken meat is prepared with sesame oil, soy bean sauce and salt)

3) Half teaspoon of cooking oil

4) Pasta tomato sauce (bought from supermarket)

5) A teaspoon of salt

6) One teaspoon of sugar ( Im using brown sugar instead of white sugar, brown sugar is much more tastier compare to normal white sugar)

7) A little of garlic slice

8) A little of black pepper

9) Water (depends on the number of pax)

First, prepare 500ml of water into a pot and wait a few minutes for the water to be boiled.

After the water is fully boiled pour an amout of bowties and a teaspoon of salt into the pot. Wait for 15 minutes for the bowties to be soften. After 15 minutes, pour the cooked bowties and fliter out the hot water and pour into a bowl with cold water in it. The cooked bowties will be more tastier and Q after poured some cold water in it.

Next, prepare and heat a pan-fry or pot. Then, pour the half teaspoon of cooking oil and garlic slices until browned. Then, combine it with the pasta tomato sauce and add a small amount of water, add the chicken meat and one teaspoon of brown sugar and black pepper. Heat the sauce until very hot and the sauce will be evaporated a little.

Spot the heat from the pic? =) Remember keep stirring to ensure that the chicken meat is fully cooked.

The pasta sauce is finally done!!! MmmMmmmmm~~~

Pour the pasta sauce and combine with the cooked bowties.

Serve hot, garnished with extra basil leaves and black pepper. =) Ready to be serve!!

Hehe does the pasta look tasty?!! hehehe XD Of course it tasted yummy and its edible!!!

Do not hestitate and try it now!!! ngek ngek =) (evil grin)

XOXO

Loneliness.

2009-06-10T00:29:00.006+08:00

♥ Future is in my own hand...

This time, I really have to think deeply for my future now... I made a decision to not involve college life anymore... No matter how hard I study, how many effort I put on it, the outcome is not that I wanted. Sometimes, I were so envy those student who can study well to pursue their dreams until they are completely graduate. Just blame myself why I cant be like them eventhough already had 3 times of big lesson for me to wake the playful me up. As time goes by, it doesnt seems work on me. Still, the attitudes on study remains the same thing again, again and again.

I know Im not the kind of material to study. And of course, I miss my college mate alots, sometimes felt upset when I finished reading Yenn's, Chee Hui's and Loke's blog. Memories and pictures that you guys posted on the blog, places that we often visit while break in college, had our lunch together and so on... I will not involve on the group picture anymore... no more DMK5 for me anymore... but all of those memories are still in my heart =) Hope our friendship doesnt fade away....

Anyhow, I hope I will not regret to choose the future path that I really wanted. Wish me luck =)

God bless me.

XOXO

Way Back Into Love.

2009-06-08T18:11:00.008+08:00

♥ Bored Kuantan Trip.

Finally update a little here, again. Nothing happening to update nowadays...

Just hang out sometimes... mostly spent my time with my family. Mummy girl =)

Found a job for beauty products every weekend until July... since started my repeat stuff. That's why plan to work and make myself busy =)

Mom planned for Kuantan trip to visit relatives and celebrate earlier father's day with grandpa. This was the first time my mum drove back to Kuantan, of course she's not really well of the journey, we followed along my aunt's husband car. Nothing special thou, just a normal dinner with them, berbonding and chit-chatting with them since we didnt meet each other for long time. And Kuantan's food is sucks!!! After dinner, went for movie with a few of my cousins at MegaMall and the others have their own stuff to do.

17 again. Craves for this movie after I saw the trailer. The movie not bad thou, Zac Efron look great in the movie. Rate for 4/5 =)

Supposed we planned for Terminator Salvation lor, but sadly mostly of the seats are fully booked.

Dinner-ing.

Bought those goodies for myself since there have alots of sales outside =) I love hair care product, used to buy loads of them in my room haha XD Long time did not shop seriously, waiting for my salary first~~

And the thing is... I didnt club for almost a month~ How great!!! Aikss I've been rejected all of my invitations from friends. It's because I am lazy hee XD But I need some alcohol and some club hits recently... ><'''

Overall... the trip is bored. The main thing just to visit my relatives. Kuantan is so damn fucking hot man!!! Unbearable!!! Still sweating after bath for the second time. I miss my home sweet home =) And I hate useless ego-bastard, again. Girl must be strong and independent, perhaps those idoit bastard thought that most of us are still naive and dreaming at damn loveland. You're wrong. I like to being realistic =)

p/s: I need a banner for my blog aikss...

XOXO

Ohhhh my effing god!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-02T18:09:00.013+08:00

♥ The twilight saga- Twilight

Next episode of Twilight movie-New Moon official trailer!!!
I cant wait la~~ 20 November 2009!!!!!!

p/s: Bella look prettier, Edward look so hot as usual in every angle and expressions and finally saw Jacob turned into werewolf!!!

Hate That I Love You.

2009-06-01T01:48:00.003+08:00

♥ Hello =) Im back... finally got my connection fixed and update a little here ^^

Hmm been having alots of conflicts, really dont no I should do this do that...

Should I continue or go for another? Work or not? Aiksss...

Why I cant be a little more rasional and mature minded? Everything started from last minute and without preparation... how can I be succeed? how can I achieve my goals my dream?

Sigh. Counsellor needed.

I need time.

Since I have nothing to do during the weekend, Kit Ping and I went for a job that work for Naturel cooking oil roadshow at Taman Maluri Jusco. It was the first time I work in Jusco, and it was a nice and experienced yet tiring job for me =) Promoting skill, comunicating skill, culinary skill and more haha XD

And of course, I know many nice friends from there too ^^

Nice groupie pics taken by Josh =)

Haha cant even see my face in both of the pics, maybe I was too happy that time haha XD

Luckily, we have four nice and helpful supervisor and a funny DJ Alan =)

Honestly, I really cant bear for standing whole day... it's killing me!!!! My heels really hurt right now argh ><>

Yeah, now still finding another freelance job for earning more pocket money ^^ Wish me luck lorh =) Perhaps it's a good to leave them? .... hope everything will be fine soon =]

Loves.

XOXO

Memories Last Forever.

2009-05-27T14:13:00.003+08:00

This is the only pic that can represent DMK5 of year 08-09^^

♥ Thanks to all my beloved DMK5 classmates for bringing me alots of unforgetable memories, fun, sillyness and laughter during our wonderful college life although just in a year =)

And of course, I wont forget our pretty class representative Yenn Rou aka Foxy with her cute childishness and her 'step' skill hahaha XD jokin' larh =)

Funnyman but serious Chee Hui XD He's our class cold joker hehe ^^

Our future singer Jia yee aka Sotong, soft and cute girl Tweety bird Yin Yee, big eyes Panda Zi Xin always a guy magnet wherever she goes, workaholic Yoke Cheng, Christine, Jessica, our class the only one sweet couple Pei Mun and Chuan Zhi.

Our class macho David Leong and Ah Loke =)

Aikkss cant forget the time that we always used to hanging out together when after class...

Sit together in a group in lecture hall, having lunch together in canteen... hahaha XD

Thou we will be no longer that close like previous time, but I hope our friendship will never fades and keep in touch more lorh ^^ Miss you all long time =)

For me, perhaps it's a big lesson to wake me up from the playful, lazy and sarcastic me =)

Dunno what to write more... just really miss you all ^^

Anyhow, thanks for everything ^^

take care of yourself and study hard.

hugs & kisses...

Loves.

XOXO

Girls Day Out =)

2009-05-25T18:00:00.006+08:00

♥ Sorry for neglecting my blog for few days... due to my laziness and my damn lousy broadband connection. Dont ever thought of using Umobile, I bet you'll regret of its service =) Any good suggestion for broadband service? Anyhow, thanks to Alex who helping me to settle my lappie's problem ^^

And yeah, my semester break finally comes to an end. Have to start back to my hectic college life again =) Look forward for the new second year in tarc ^^

Anyhow, I still miss my holidays alots... aikss 15 weeks more XD

Hmm wanna update a girls day out with my babes =) Long time didnt have a serious nice outing with my secondary school classmates already. We had our lunch at our 'always hang out place' - Yong Guang. We used to had our lunch there during the high school moment. Feeling nostalgic when back to there and really miss the high school moment =)

After lunch, continue our outing to shop at ts and swang as usual =)

Dear Chooi Yan & Mun Ting.

Non-stop camwhoring while waiting for CY.

Two pretties =)

Silly poser haha XD

Then, went for dessert session due to our tiredness after shopping hehe ^^

Yum yum~~

Ahh result for final will be posted up tomorrow~ Wish me luck haihzz...

Loves.

p/s: I hates rude bastards!!!! I always being myself and always forever... so fuck-off if u dont like me ^^

XOXO

Lets get the partaayy started =)

2009-05-15T20:05:00.009+08:00

♥ I like the Boom Boom Pow~~~

Awww at last we had lotsa of fun on Euphoria MOS thrusday night in the year of 2009 =) It's been quite a long time didnt club with my babes already, but too bad Chooi Yan and Ee Tian couldnt make it thou =( I guess we might have greater fun with you two ^^

And you stupiak Wong Chee Hui!!!! Gik sei me larh, I wanna see your 'mao' yong but ended up you and your buddies clubbed at Quattro... Im craving see to curious face when kao-ing girls and meet up with your Freeze wahahaha XD Nextime la buddy ^^

At first, we planned to club at Helo Bali but ended up change to MOS due to the ambiance at HB. The musics that day was nice too and not that packed that day... The good thing is we have a nice sitting place at The Deq, Euphoria. Everyone had fun at the dance floor, and I lurve dancing with Wan Teng hehe XD She's so hot and wild yeah hehehe XD

And yeah, I have using back my Lumix digital Camera and the pics really looks great ^^

The PESS chicks in black^^ Heart this pic muchie=)

The boys. Too bad, ch is not inside the pic =( See I really miss your 'mao' yong larh ch!! ngek ngek ngek~
From left, Sam. Jimmy. Mei's two friends from SYUC. Brandon. Ken

After a few cups of liquor, getting a lil KO mode liao ><''' but Freeze KO first hahaha XD

Ahhh this one my face looks so red XD

Kit Ping I love you !!!! hehehe XD Remember our rap?! Single!! Single!!! wahahaha XD

Girls just wanna have fun =) Heart you all ^^

"Kit Ping are you alright?" I said. sounded worried. "Mmmmmm" She murmured. Speechless but blurrr.

Then all acting drunk like KP does.

After club, yamcha session at Station one but KP still in KO mode, kinda serious. Nextime better dont drink so much la dear =) Anyhow, no matter how you drunk or how you behave when in KO state, we will take care of you babe ^^ Wahahaha XD

Girlfriends is da best!!! Hugs & kisses~

Loves.

XOXO

Love is in the air...

2009-05-14T06:40:00.008+08:00

♥ Yes, Im too free to stay all day long at home doing nothing teehee XD

Im soooo lazy to work since the semester break is not long enough ^^ Is this an excuse ? hee XD

OKay Lets talk about GG2 =)

Awww it was so great after watching GossipGirl episode 24, it's between Serena and her mother Lily Bass and she had Serena arrested by the police because she has no other option to under control her daughter from the plan that she wants to take care of Poppy Lifton's scam. She felt so guilty after arrested her daughter Serena and deeply thought on her past that how Lily's mum- Cece treated her in the past too... But the sadest part is about Chuck, awww I luv Chuck and Blair alot ^^ Chuck wants Blair to be happy but Blair was misunderstood him... All he wanted is just Blair to be happy with her current bf Nate. But finally, she broke up with Nate after the prom night. Serena felt that all her mother did is just for her own good...

Isnt friendship and family are the most precious thing in life? They're the one who care and love you the most, the one who always stand by your side, make you happy and comfort you when you're upset, cherish and support you whatever decision you've made....

I heart you all~~~ Especially my dearest mum, though you still always scolded me for being so lazy during the break, but I know you still love us so much with your greatest love and care and still cook those yummy foods for us to becoming your ballons ^^ Muaxx

Cant wait for next episode again =)

I want more Chuck and Blair!!! XD

p/s: I gave you too many of chances, perhaps you're just same as other bastards and you dont appreciates and grateful at all. Sometimes, chances are not always appear just for you, and it will not come back to you anymore no matter what you did and dissapear with no reason...

Perhaps no one will appreciate thing as if the thing was too easily to get it just from others?

You deserves better.

Loves.

XOXO

Tracy's Secret Recipe XD

2009-05-12T05:46:00.004+08:00

Yes, and its over =)

♥ Hello =) Yes, im blogging now, and it's 6am in the morning and I still havent off to bed for my beauty sleep great... Insomnia is back, again =) I guess I need back my sleeping pills again XD

Since I couldnt sleep and I didnt eat anything for 6 hours, so I decided to cook myself for some food to fill up empty stomach =) Yeah, fried egg sudden poped out on my mind and I decide to cook fried egg for myself XD And of course, I put few healthy ingredients like spring onion, tomatoes, potato and some chicken meat =)

Okay, all you need is eggs, spring onion, tomatoes, potato, chicken meat, butter, salt, black pepper and a small teaspoon of sesame oil =) ( Sounds so pro leh wahaha XD )

Ahh Im totally sucks in cooking!!!! The outcome is....

No comment. Yea, I try to keep the spring onion, tomatoes, chicken meat and potato 'inside' ( so called egg biscuit in chinese) the fried egg. Mission FAILED. How nice.

Dunno whether its edible anot? =='''

Awww the chicken meat are not fully can be eaten and I forgetten to cook the potato to mashed potato. Yucks ><

Hahahax overall is... but it didnt taste so bad la, it would be better if I put more effort on the chicken eat and the potato... hehehe XD

Loves.

XOXO

最幸福的事

2009-05-09T04:28:00.002+08:00

Lonely one.

♥ My holidays had begun... but things seem like nothing change- sleep-eat-online-eat-online-sleep... The same stupid bored routine.

The same lonely life, too =)
Nothing much to update about. Nothing special happening.
I need some company laaa XD

Likey this pic =)

Freeze and me in greenbox.

Karaoke is one of the way to relief stress =)

Dear, life's still goes on... give yourself some time let it go and move on ok? ^^

No dare to face it anymore, the fear is still distracting me...

Is there any hopes for me?! I dont wanna be S and A laaaa XD

I need a hug XD

XOXO

Holidays.

2009-05-05T14:50:00.006+08:00

Ishhh my eyebrow are failed. Im sucks at drawing/trimming eyebrow =(

♥ Finally I had finished all of my paper ^^ Feels so good after exam. No more stress XD Must get a lots of sufficient beauty sleep and pamper for myself after exam... A big sign of relief ^^

But the bad news is I gained weight after exam weeks!!! OMG I did eat alot during exam, u know larh I used to eat many stuffs to release stress... That's why Im chubby ><'' Pity me.

I need a serious diet plan now!! At least try to not eat anymore after 7pm and work more.
Do more exercises ^^ Cut down high calories food and drinks =)

Maybe plan to work in shopping mall, though work part time in a mall is kinda low in salary, but I rather work than staying at home doing nothing =) Wanna keep myself busy and I wont think much too =) But of course it will be great if I found some jobs for roadshow or event.

Wish me luck =)

Then, update few pictures here, outing night with my cute muimui =)

Me and this pretty girl Jane.

Envy her larh, she's so pretty eh ><''' Especially her eyes ^^

Yoki and Jane. Both of them are 12 years bestie ^^

Gotta read all of my novels and magazines ^^ Bought alot during the exam week =)

Loves.

p/s: Seems it doesnt make any sense when you're gone... I guess it's a good sign =) Single is great^^

XOXO

One more to go...

2009-04-29T17:21:00.005+08:00

♥ Finally... Finished major part of my paper =) Just left one for Microeconomics...
After finish you, I will be free from stress and do whatever I want during the semester break, thou the semester break is not long enough, but I hope still can used up my holiday with satisfaction.

But still, I cant do really well for my BITA paper... I missed alot of chapters and couldnt do well at all... guess I will know what result I'll getting soon =( Sigh.

Back to update a little of my recent life now...
Sometimes I realized that I dont have any real friends in my life...
I try to not think of it but it seems the fear came back and distracted my mind again.
Especially when I really needed someone to comfort and talk with, I just cant think of anyone who can really understands and listen to my thoughts.
I felt that I am so lonely and being isolated ...
Usually I spent more time on my own, I hate to eat alone, watch movie alone, walk alone...
Everyone seems getting more and more distance from me...

Most of my girl friends spent their time most on their bf...
Normally they wont call me if I dont do the first step to call them out...
But why this keep happening on me? Why me?
Why I have to deserves that much of loneliness and sadness?

Maybe I should face the cruel reality... hmm and this is the only way I can do.
Try to be strong and tough.. Perhaps I should think at the brighter side that maybe it is just a part of an obstacle? And I have to used to it??
I cant have things in my own way....
I cant think other ways that can cure my sadness, blogging is the only way to express out my feeling and thoughts...

And I would feeling better ..... at least

XOXO

Sem 3 is over...

2009-04-26T09:58:00.002+08:00

♥ Finally, semester 3 is over with alots of fun and laughter...

Hmm short semester is isnt that bad hahaz, at least we can finish our whole semester within 7 weeks instead of 14 weeks... Mostly having 14 weeks semester is kinda bored and less of motivation to study compare to short semester =) Shortcut marh XD

Im glad I can do for my papers for my 3rd semester =) Hopefully can score better grades hehe XD
Just a lil worried and concerned on my resit paper, normally dont have much of motivation to study anymore since the actual final examination has ended. Forced to... who call me dont study hard that time aikkss =(

After OB test, straight back to home sweet home then have a lil short nap instead of joining my classmates for yamcha session and movies =( Sorry caused I've missed it. Was so fuckin' tired that time, cant even walk properly when on the way back home. Always lacks of sleep during exam =( That's why I will easily fall sick during this time...

Speaking of plans for my semester break...
This is a must for me. I love holidays hehe XD Hmm really dont no what I can do during the coming semester break, of course I hope I can found a nice part time job and earn a lil pocket money =) And of course, where we should go after exam with my DMK5 again?! Hehe Redang Island? Or Langkawi? Duty-free for alcohol and chocolates? Snokerling? Hahaha cant wait!! Wait for my class rep ' Chou Ah Yenn' plan it hehe ^^

Im waiting XD

Gotta go for my revision ^^

Happy holiday to all of my classmates =)

p/s: I wanna watch Coming Soon!!! Who's willing to be my company? =) ngek ngek

Loves.

XOXO

Exam Week.

2009-04-22T23:52:00.005+08:00

♥ Pheww... Just finished my BO and FOS paper, this week just left for OB and it should end on saturday... Have to extent to more few days for my resit paper. Pity me. =(

But I still dont have much of confidence. Haih..

Luckily have a lil short break after BO test, err.. can rest a lil finally ^^

Hopefully I can score better grades than last semester, caused I'd put alots of effort on them. I dont wanna resit any paper again!!!! I really wanna study harder this time.

Sooo regret why I dont study hard in my first and second semester. Haizz

I'll have a serious of phobia of resit paper soon ><

Sooo fuckin' stress... Almost every night burn tons of midnight oil...

Scared to resit my paper again and again if I didnt do well for my examination...

Wish me luck.

Have to play till siaoz after exam. Teehee XD

p/s: Gosh.. what's happened to me? I hate that I miss you =(

XOXO

Blame On Me.

2009-04-17T05:27:00.009+08:00

♥ My previous post have a lil error and I couldnt edit anything on it =( Many wrong words... Just forget about the mistakes of the previous post.

I really have no idea why Im doing that... during the preparation days for my next week exam... Every students are worried and work really hard for it for their studies and stay at home for the last few days before the exam week had started.

I went Euphoria last night. Good.

Still got mood to club when the exam week is around the corner. WTF Im done!

Sigh.

I went to college yesterday to take my OB test and take some notes from friends. Suprisingly, I met Yi Wei aka XiaoBai in a classroom at PA Block the class that I have to take my OB test.

My cacat doing notes act and Yi Wei took the pics of it. Hahaha XD

Just wanna share those funny pics^^

Anyhow I wanted to post up those pics up caused I met many new friends at there. Many friends from other colleges... They're really friendly and nice^^ Thanks to CM =) I love those groupie photos ^^

Chooi Yan and the friends that I met last night.

CY, Venice, really a friendly girl and Me.

After club.

Something bad happened when clubbing, it was between CY and her relationship stuff, really made me dissapointed and upset. I realized that remains single is good, sometimes. Haizz =( It's complicated. 早知今天何必当初呢？

p/s: Thanks to you that you treated me so nice. I was truly appreciated, but I still needs some time....

Back to do my revision~ FOS is really killing me... 17 Chapters @@

Wish me luck.

XOXO

Dilemma.

2009-04-16T03:06:00.003+08:00

Arghhh!! Will be less updates due to my final ><

Im totally stressed up... superb dilemma XD

This semester's exam week should be end in just a week which is start from 20/4 to 25/4 but I've to handle few resit subjects... so the date will expand to 5th May... WTF

Damn regret why I didnt study hard enough last semester. Sigh. Nice lesson.

Gonna lock up myself and burn tons of midnight oil until the 5th of May...

Killer Insomnia and headaches always came back and distracted me argh!! Go away go away~

Anyhow wishes every students from TARC have a busy weeks for final ahead XD

Blaaaaa.

God bless me.

XOXO

Time Heals Everything.

2009-04-11T16:13:00.006+08:00

♥ Ohh speaking about my 'zhu tao pei', I've already recovered already. Thanks for the concern yah ^^ Actually I dont no what called 'zhu tao pei' in english. I've already google it, it's called 腮腺炎 in chinese and Mumps in english. It was the painful swelling of the salivary glands. No specific treatment for Mumps. Mumps is a contagious disease that is spread from person-to-person through contact with respiratory secretions such as saliva from an infected person. It was a common disease for children. Hmm... I think my body's immune system is bad indeed =(

Back to the topic,

After my OB class back home rest and prepare for outing with Chooi Yan. We watched Confessions of a Shopaholics. The movie was not that bad, but too bad the movie's story is not that interesting. The books series is much more better. Overall, we did enjoyed the movie of all the shopping stuffs hehe =)

My sore face are gone hehehe!!!! Byebye 'bengkak' face ^^

p/s: CY dear please dont sad anymore because of' him. It's not worth to do this. Time heals everything, Im sure you will live more happier without him, time for be an independent girl ^^ We always be there for you muacks ~ Be tough girl ^^

Many movies to catch up but final is around the corner.

God bless me, gimme more motivation to study please =='''

Loves.

XOXO

Thinking Of You.

2009-04-08T14:07:00.006+08:00

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

♥ Hello =) Finally my assignments all are done and final is around the corner... Time flies...

Im gonna finish my semester 3 soon, and if my result are satisfactory I'll be continue my studies to second year ^^ Hmm hope so....

My weekends is really really bored, 3 days stay at home and with the same routine that I've mentioned before. Should join my friends to club on friday but end up not going it's because my mouth infection- 猪头皮 in cantonese/mandarin. Omg my face became so big on my left side of my cheek, actually it was started from the ulser (hope I didnt spell the word wrong). It was kinda painful too. I cant even sleep very well these days. My mum said it was the 'zhu tao pei', she said it'll happen if your body is really hot and lacks of nutrients and maybe eaten too many 'hot' foods lik fried food. I guess it was due to the hot heather nowadays.

Plus my body's immune system is not good as well =p

Global warming.

The weather hot like siao.

Luckily, my mum cooked some herbal tea for me to reduce the heat in my body. Thanks mum ^^ In the ancient, my aunts and uncles said the word 'tiger' 虎 in chinese must write on the 'zhu tao pei' with the people's finger who born in tiger year. It'll definitely helped and healed the 'zhu tao pei' and reduce the 'bengkak' on the cheeks. At first, my thought was like it's really unbelievable and weird myth from my superstitious parents. My cousin sis who born in tiger year written the word 虎 on my left side of my cheek.

Few hours ago, omg it was really helped!! The 'bengkak' really reduced and looks smaller.

所谓：不听老人言，吃亏在眼前 haha XD

Im glad Im recovered from the sickness. I should put more alert and cares on my lifestyle haha =)

Health is the most crucial issue in our life. Take care everyone =)

Loves.

XOXO

Never Let you go...

2009-04-04T10:16:00.008+08:00

♥ Time to update a little here =) Im glad everything is back to normal^^
Yesterday, it was our whole class presentation for FOS. Of course, all of us will wear in our formal clothes and take pictures for sure hehe XD

Speaking about presentation, I really didnt do well, blame my forgetful habit and nervousness, adrenaline rushed everywhere. Sigh.

This pic taken for BO presentation. My BO assignment members. Yin Yee, Chee Hui and Pei Min =)

Me and chou Ah Yenn hehe XD Our leng lui foxy class rep ^^

Chris and me.

Yin Yee and Panda. Chee hui probably will love this pic haha XD

Silly face =)

Our favourite pic ^^

Group 6.

Group 3.

Loves.

XOXO

Envy or motivation?

2009-04-02T08:30:00.002+08:00

I think I have to get over those fucked-up stuff and no more exist in my mind, my heart, my life anymore!!!!

You're not worth for me to make me sad and being so destuctive on myself.

Enough is enough. I have my own limitation.
Argh, Im so pathetic huh?!

I choose to leave I guess, off from the unhappy and sadness land...
I am always alone.

Fuck.

Im Always Alone.

2009-03-30T14:59:00.005+08:00

♥ Hello =) Update my little recent story here =p Sorry for those emo and fucked- up thingy for my previous post. I really have no ideas what Im gonna to do next... Used all my last weekend to clear out my mind. Is it my problem, my attitude? Ahhh. I dont think Im wrong to those people honestly, I just wanna being myself all the time. Sorry if I offense you all. Nenenenene. I DONT CARE.

So how was everyone during Earth Hour? Switch off the lights or not? My mum did, but she just switched off our rooms, kitchen and all.. except the laptop and tv ==''' Gahhhhh.

Mostly our neighbourhood all doesnt switch off their lights also lorh. So does I, Im dressin up myself for later outing, so after 11pm went out then baru switched off my lights haha XD

Then, I felt damn guilty for skipping class for almost 4 times above. Tracy, it's week 5 for my short semester already. Behave!!!!! Always late for class and my stupid pro procrastination skill. How good. *Slapping my cheeks* Future depends on it!!!!

In college, I still always being so forgetful and paranoic. Please let me get through all those sadness... God bless me....

In Supper.

Clubbed in Supper. It's sucks larh. Go there just because of my friend and my loneliness whole day at home. Seafoods everywhere. I think Supper can be the best selling seafoods market haha. Kidding ^^

I had almost finish my Twilight. Going to buy the New Moon soon ^^ Most of the bookstore outlets like MPH and Borders already sold out for the Twilight and New Moon, left over for Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. But the good thing is I found them at MPH outlet at Alpha Angle Jusco which is nearby from my college hehe. Cant wait for the New Moon movie on 2010^^

Watched a few of New Moon Fan Made Trailer. It was awesome yet really sad... Damn emo again after watching those videos haha. This is the link of the New Moon fan made Trailer. Enjoy^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AsghUBi81qY

Have a hectic weekdays ahead ^^ Haha

Toodles.

XOXO

It's too late to apologize...

2009-03-25T19:57:00.001+08:00

I've just realized that Im nothing, empty and a zero to them. How nice.

I think it'll be better if I dont no them, I meant just pretend to forgot all of them completely.
Shouldnt I repeat my studies and join another one? Is it a good choice for me or Im just wanna to escape myself from the situation and get over this hurtful thing?!

Argghh it was really hurt.
What I should do when I face them anymore?!

I really confessed I dont have any real friends in my life. How good.
Im exhausted, really. Sigh.

XOXO

Fall For You.

2009-03-24T01:47:00.002+08:00

♥ Hello =) I have the mood to blog a little here. Just came back from outing with friends. Hmm Im wondering and considering to cut my fringe like Niki's, is it it'll look better? HEH

It's been a long time didnt met her, I think around 5 weeks I guess... She slimmer than lastime I'd saw her. How good =)

Bluurrr.

I'd spent alots for this month. Really alots. It does really satisfied me, though. ngek ngek ngek XD

Eat too much. Shop too much. Drink too much. Insane & killer.

I didnt play too much. I didnt club more than twice in this month. How nice.

Gettin' more obedient. HEH

Love my new purple lens <3

I was kinda proud with my hair colour, many compliments from friends. *PERASAAN*

Cant wait for Transformer 2. Watching it soon babeeyy^^

Toodles.

XOXO

Diet-must.

2009-03-21T23:37:00.005+08:00

♥ Hello =) I had been neglecting my blog, again. Teeheeeee XD Really nothing really happening nowadays... Just wake up early for classes, Lrt, study then Lrt, back home, online, sleep... Routine keeps repeating and repeating... Damn bored sighhhed =(

I miss clubs hmm just sometimes, honestly... Lonely either, just sometimes seriously... My life's really fragile I can see arghhh... And I didnt work anymore after my college had started. Really fucking tired after rushing those assignments. When I feel really really bored, I'll just grabs some interesting books and magazine, I think books only can get rid my boredness away, since I dont have any bf, real friends larh... My life's damn fragile. Sighed.

Ohh Im started to be a Twilights fans haha, watched many times for Twilight movies and bought the book series too. Love Edward and Bella. Envy their love story. Hmmm sounds a little outdated huh?! Twilight is kinda old for now. Hoping for the New Moon movie =)

Okay. Just update a few things here^^

Yesterday afternoon went to SUB international make up and beauty school for be my friend Chooi Yan make up model. I dont feel really wanna go honestly haha, but I had promised her so just go there without any guiltyness. Almost fell asleep when the make up test started, damn tired that time XD

The make-up test's topic is the creative make-up. =)

Love the creative make up <3

Fuckin' fatty me as usual =p

The groupie pic of the day. Ahhh my bread face =(

Lastly, posted a little pics of the quattro night as I said in my previous post =)

Veny the sweetie =)

Maybe clubbing is only can reduce my loneliness. WTF

Nothing much. Enjoy =p

Loves.

XOXO

The Recent Me.

2009-03-14T21:43:00.005+08:00

♥ Hello =) It's been quite a long time to neglecting my blog, it's because Im busy for my studies after my college had started and nothing really happening nowadays... and my laziness of course =p

Speaking about my studies, some of our tutors already gave us a few of assignments on the first week WTF argghh I hate short semester, really!! All subs are based on theories instead of praticals, I dont really like theory honestly. But I really have to fight for my studies to continue my course to my second year^^

But still, Im not that kind of student like bookworms or nerds that always stay at home and study for all day long, I still need some space for entertainment hahaha XD Parties, clubs, pubs whatever thing that's fun!! Will update my Quattro night soon. I've admited Im not a good student ngek ngek..

Ohh and sadest thing is, my BabyT cellphone!!!!! Really sad when Im thinking about her... She's not waterproof at all and my stupid water bottle spilt the water out in my bag... The handphone is not really functioning after the water 'flow' into her, the keypads are burnt indeed. I forgotten I've to off my cellphone immediately and took off her battery out. Ahhhhhhh!!!! I cried and almost fainted that time!! Thou she's not an expensive and pretty looking cellphone, but for me she's my precious, useful compare to those useless guys outside, helpful and my all-day-must gadget =p I cant live without her...

And now, she was sent to the cellphone repairing shop. All I can do is wait for her for a few days and maybe will trade in for another cellphone sighh... Money is flying soon... I cant really let her go, I used her for almost 13 months and she's still functioning well and I'd take care of her everytime... =(

Come back to mama please...

I miss my BabyT, now I were forced to used my mum's cacat cellphone =(

Gotta go for my assignments..

Toodles XD

XOXO

Life's a Mistery.

2009-03-08T23:51:00.011+08:00

♥ Hello world =) The recent weather is really crazy, damn hot as in desert but it'll rains with cats and dogs arghh!!! Hmm... How was everyone weekend? Im doing great =)

Anyway thanks to my friends that cares and concerned on my previous post, really truly appreciated... I'll pretend it as my working experience and a lesson... =) Money is really not easy to earn ^^

Anyhow, my shopaholics sickness is pop-ed up, again. After been working so hard, I'll pampered myself and buy shitloads of things for myself hahaha XD Hey who isn't? Sales are shown everywhere in wherever shopping complexes *evil grin*

I skipped OB and BO lectures class and go for shopping at Pavilion and swang. OMG lazy me!!!

Charles & Keith's high heels, Stella's handbag, SkinFood skin care products, Diva accessories, some cosmetics from SaSa. The Stella's handbag is a little look alike the Chanel handbag, since I cant afford for Chanel's so just bought the similiar one to satisfy myself hehe^^

Etude House's eye makeup remover, AnnaSui new fragrance, cosmetics from SaSa, Babyliss hair curler and hair straightener, 2 pairs of high heels and a black scarf. Omg I spent alots ahhhh ><'''

Finally I bought the hair curler and hair straightener that I've craving for so long!! I think it's gonna very helpful for my hair and makeup course in the future. I love soft curly hair <3>

On Saturday, outing at ts and swang with my dear Chooi Yan. Ohh I really love to hang out with her, we always gossip alots and she's the only one who I can tell the most secrets with hahaha XD Love you dear ^^ Muackssss~

Smooch. Chuuuuu~

Drinking session with my love bubble milk tea at Little Taiwan =)

After shopping, got a call from Zhan Yit and went to Maison. Stupid club ever!! Awww Maison is really really sucks...

Taken before off to Maison =)

All FFK accept me and Chooi Mei. The loyalty clubber hahaha XD

Some random pics at Little Tree with my college mates =)

Reflection of us ^^ My camera phone blocked Yenn's face =p

Always hang out and having lunch as usual when break time.

I havent collect my Hello Kitty MAC!!!! It'll be my collection soon hehe ^^

Toodles =p

XOXO

Imperfection.

2009-03-07T00:48:00.008+08:00

♥ Hey everyone ^^ It's the time to update for my blog and what happened about me nowadays..

I've been looking for some freelance job for this few weeks, really hopes to earn some money since I've lots of thing to buy and wanna do some saving too =p But no matter how, Im gonna spent most of them in my hair, outfits, cosmetics etc. A superb spender XD
But I really have to control myself to no over-spending =(

Yeap. I work for another event company again, for selling Gin at Cocobanana. They have to see my first testing day before they hire me. I know Im sucks in doing sales but I tried to do more sales as more as I can, maybe I dont have a good-looking face, not hot at all as Lena Fujii or any superb hot model from Victoria Secret, and couldnt speaks well like my senior does. I think that day was the most bad and awkward day that I ever had. When I first arrived there, I saw alots of shooter girls selling tequilla and vodka from other agent too. Many competitors. The bad thing is, I saw my previous agent!!! I've trying to hide myself away from them, but I failed. It's impossible to hide away from them caused they all are working in the club same as mine. The girls, the supervisor, the manager and other staffs all are there!!! They saw me, working for another agent. How Im gonna concentrate on my job with many pairs of eyes looking at me?!! They'll judge and tease at me why still some other agent will hire a useless worker like me. Im sooo awkward and sad that time. They dont hire me it's because I couldnt do well on sales. This was my first time to lost a job. And now, they saw me working for another agent!!! I felt so inferior and really upset. Why I cant do well in sales like my senior does, my sales on that day even less than a new girl and she dont have any experience at all!! Why Im sooo stupid??!!! I cried and really feels like refuse to continue my job, I wanna go home!! How Im gonna be a good marketing student?! Im so stupid!!!

I felt so weak that time, why that's no one could understand me, comfort me and always stand by just for me?! I even dont have any real friends... my parents will not always beside me and live with me and care about me forever, they'll leave me one day too... How can I live without them?

Im tired to forced myself be tough and strong... Sigh...

XOXO

Mist Club Night =D

2009-03-02T04:13:00.007+08:00

♥ Hello world =)
OMG.. I dont tag people wey ^^ Please co-operate ahh =) Dont call me to tag people too caused Im lazy ngek ngek =p

Ahhh my 5 weeks holidays finally comes to an end.. Really sad larh, Im gonna miss my holidays =( Our 3rd sem timetable finally posted up, 4 days classes in a week as usual. Monday dont have class but I still prefer no class on friday so I wont feel any hesitate to club on thrus night and rest on friday =( Pity me.. Lifestyle changed. I want friday larh!!!

Anyhow, I miss college's life too.. Felt like kinda empty and a little too free at home..

The next semester is a short semester. I heard my friend said short semester is kinda tough because you've to rush for everything like assignments, tests or exams in just a short semester. Sounds like so bad huh?! =(

Wish me luck.

Okay, back to the topic.

On friday, my bitches planned to join Zhan Yit and friends to club, of course Im joining them too. We went to Mist Club. It was our first time to club at there. Mist Club is packed with most indian than chinese sweat =p The indian's favourite club I guess haha ^^

Unfortunately, stupid operasi came and separated us for urine test after we reached there for a few minutes. WTF.

Totally speechless. My clubbing mood GONE. WTF.

Came here for just wasting our time..

Luckily, the stupid operasi finally finished their job. Omg, it was a long story...

DUH. Who cares? The music is back and so the ambiance. We're just wanna have fun hehe ^^

Drank a little alcohol and my mood is back haha, how fast XD

And of course. Dance like there's no tommorow. Dont stop the music...

Lets the pictures do the talking...

Freeze. Chooi Mei. Tracy

Me & Freeze =)

Quite for a long time did not seen her =p Me & Chooi Mei.

Yee Mun, Chooi Mei, Zhan Yit & Chee Liang =)

Partaaayy people!!!

Started to a little KO?!!

ZY. CM. YM and Wilson.

I'll be upset when looking this pic, dont no why?! Sigh =(

Crazy Chee Liang and Wilson. Hahahaa XD

Cameraman sudah KO....

The club closed for a little late due to the stupid operasi, disturbia bastards!!!

Went mamak after that then back home straight continue my beauty sleep. HEH.

Lazy liao. Byeeee.

XOXO

best of Tracy.

p/s: Byebye boy... Let it go and move on =)

You're my everything that I wanted.

2009-03-01T03:38:00.012+08:00

♥ One night, lonely girl finally met her right one.. He's charming, nice and funny. Crushed. She cant believes that she met a nice guy like him, her heartbeats getting faster when she's looking at him, she tried to not looking at him and scared she'll fallen in love with him... And the most important is.. she knows that he's not available at all... His heart still belongs his loved ones..
Maybe this was the reality and the brighter side? She's no longer meet this guy anymore.. She's even hopes that she dont ever meet this guy in her life anymore... Time heals everything...

How long she needs to wait for a right guy again? Sigh...

Argghh. See, pro pessimist is started to think negatively again =(

I cant always wants my things at my own way, really...

Some bad, some good... Nothing much more important than my family and old friends.

Thou I've been met bad friends, bad things or even worst.. But I learned and grow... Girl must be tough and strong indeed XD

My happy moments with my old secondary school classmates!!! I cant really live without them,

they're the one and only, we care for each other, we share everything, we plan everything and go through it together no matter how bad is it =) Thanks for everything^^ I heart you all!!

On thrusday. Me, Wan Teng, Kit Ping and Ee Tian went to Maju Junction Mall for the interview of the coming Maxis Roadshow in swang. At first, we did lost and dont no where's the stupid Maju mall located... But finally we found it together and walked by many roads and drivers thought we're the tourist hahaha XD Caused we kept pointing here pointing that in the middle of the road hehe XD

After interviewed, we went to KFC for lunch^^

Dearest Kit Ping aka daigor & fatty Tracy XD

After lunch, went to ts and swang for some shopping. Ee Tian did not follow us caused she got something to do. Plan to watch movie but dont have any nice movies that day, so we went for sing k session at Neway hehe...

Moi, Kit Ping and Wan Teng^^

Model wannabe ngek ngek =p

Smooch from Daigor hehe XD

Then, Wan Yin and Yi Wei came too. Really long time didnt meet them haha^^ Happy to see them hehehe XD

Shopping is the best therapy ever!!!!!!

Okay larh. Lazy liao..

Next update- Mist Club night!!! Hehehe

Stay Tunes yah^^ Smooch.

XOXO

First DMK5 Genting Trip Part 2.

2009-02-27T02:20:00.003+08:00

♥ Hello peeps =) Lets continue for the previous Genting trip post hehe XD Yea, I stopped the previous post at the go-karts session. Panda, Loke, Yin Yee and David did not go for the go-karts session so they go for another ride. After that, we went for the Cockscrew roller coaster. Im afraid of height and kinda refuse to go for the Cockscrew roller coaster, not that feeling well after played alots of rides at the theme park.. feel like wanna puke and dizzy that time...
But my thought for the moment is.. It's really kinda wasted to pay for the all-park ticket, should be play till siaoz wert right?! Stupid me haha =p Almost finished play all the rides accept the crazy space shooter

Cockscrew roller coaster was really fun eh!! Not that scary as I thought hehe^^ Others went for Space Shooter... I cant bear with the height of the Space Shooter, too high for me!!! Im gonna suffer from heart attack if I go for it haha XD Only left Chee Hui, Yin Yee and Cheng who are dare to challenge for the crazy Space Shootter haha =)

Three of them took it when we're playing for go-karts^^ Nice poser ngek ngek =p

Cyclone Cyclone!!! Mini mini ride^^

After that, we went for bumper boats hehe... I cant go into it due to my miniskirt haha^^ A lilttle too rude to go for that =) Just left me and David have to wait for them on the spot.

Chris, Chee Hui, Cheng, Yin Yee & Yenn went for the first round and they kept bang-ing each other haha^^ Most of them came out with wet shirt and pants hehe =p

Favourite groupie pics ^^ Peace!!!

The mist is getting thicker and thicker...

Chris and Cheng went back home earlier on the day, they're did not come to overnight with us. Sad lorh should be more fun if you two come overnight with us =(

Usually the theme park will closed at 7pm on normal day, since most of the rides are closed so we took the opportunity to take pictures as many as possible haha XD Peoples in theme park was getting lesser and lesser too.

Yay!!! =)

David, Yenn, Loke & Me.

Mr.Loke really loves to camwhore and camwhore wherever he goes aiyo XD It was my first to saw a guy like to camwhore that much in my entire life haha!!!

Chee hui gone insane that day, he likes to hug people wherever he goes, especially Yenn & Yin Yee hahahaha XD Behave yourself larh haha!!!

My most favourite pic of the trip!!!!

TADaaaaaaaa!!!

We love to show our booties !!!!! Shake it baby~ Shake it~

Nice hor?! Hehehehe^^ Everybody love this pic!!!

On the escalator also want to take pic!!!

Really took alots of pic!!! Even the entrance also want to take with many awkward and funny pose pictiures!! Hahaha XD Many laughter and fun, indeed ^^

Hugsss Hugiesss~~

Well done picture!!! Got feel lorh!!! XD Acting emo pulak =p

The last pic before we back to our hotel room^^

Soo exhausted after came back from the outdoor theme park.. Back to our hotel room and take a lilttle short rest and went Sushi King for dinner. All foods in genting are really darn expensive, even the sushi are more expensive than in KL one argghh!!

Then, we continue our rides at the indoor. Mini coaster for 3 times, bumper cars for 2 times, ferris wheel... to wait for the time past haha but we did had alots fun ^^ After the indoor rides are closed, we went back to our hotel room again and rest and plan for third round at Starbucks, but everyone really so tired so we just clean up ourself and playing cards at the guy's room.

The most awkward thing begin.....

Ms Ah Yenn started felt hungry and wanna eat cup noodles that Chee Hui and Loke brought. So everyone getting hungry too and grabs their own cup noodles and went out to get some hot water that're supply outside the hotel rooms. Yenn remembered to take out the guy's hotel room's card before she go out. ( Guy's room and girl's room are separated but inside there's a extra door among the guy's and girl's room ). Since the carpets outside of the hotel rooms are clean and the hot water supply is nearby from our room, so we walked out to take the hot water with our bare feet (no wearing shoes at all). The guys plan to eat the cup noodles outside the hotel rooms so that we're not gonna to dirty or mess up the rooms if the cup noodles are spill or what. Then, we plan to back our rooms since most of us are making noise outside and maybe disturb the others. Yenn inserted the card and open the door but the door is locked from inside. We cant go in since she's just took out the guy's room card. Everyone kept blaming each other that time hahaha!!! None of us can open the door so we forced to ask for help from Sitoe and Panda ( the next door of our rooms ) We cant go down to the lobby to ask for help with bare feets and pyjamas right?! hahahaha our shoes and everything are inside the room. Luckily, Sitoe and Panda asked for help from the staff to open the door. The staff bang the door and the door is finally unlocked hehehe ^^ How geng are him!!! We felt so paiseh that time hahahaha.. Blame the one who locked the door from inside larh!! XD

Then, it was almost 5am that time so everyone is getting really tired and go for rest... ZzZZzz

We packed everything and checked out before 12pm. Everyone bought their own bus tickets and back to their own house ^^

It was a fun and memorable trip, hope we can go for another trip together during the semester break again haha =) Holidays gonna end soon....... =(

Hope you all did enjoyed for the post!!!

Much of Loves.

XOXO

First DMK5 Genting Trip Part 1.

2009-02-26T01:56:00.014+08:00

♥ This is gonna be our the one and only DMK5 class Genting trip. One word, fun but tiring =p Luckily we didnt used that much of money because most of them are prepared with alots of vouchers for theme park, foods and hotel rooms. It was really helpful and reduce our actual budget. So thoughful we are, sharing is caring =) Too bad Sotong Tan is not there with us =( She's still at her hometown.

At first, I did plan not going for the trip due to my job. But since this is the first genting trip with my college's mates and most of them are going, why not?! Im sure we'll really had alots of fun^^ Love them much much~ <3

Ahh we took alots of pictures!! Really alots, around 200+ of them hahaha. We captured every single happy moments we had =) I think I should separate into two parts of the trip hehe XD And I purposely blog this to all of my DMK5 classmates. Hope you all did enjoyed for the post^^

On Monday morning, we met up at titiwangsa bus station around 9am. Then we bought the bus tickets after all of them were arrived. Chee Hui & Loke prepared some foods for us incase we're hungry in the hotel rooms hehe.. Then, we went to First World Hotel to check in for our rooms. Since we still need quite long time to wait our room, so we go for lunch at Pizza Hut instead of waiting our turn in the hotel's lobby.

Having our lunch^^

Couples of the trip =) Zhi & Pei Min. Panda & Sitoe.

Enjoying their lovey dovey world so we purposely separated their table from us haha XD We dont wanna be a lightbulb wert hehe^^

After finished our lunch, we went back to the hotel's lobby and wait for our turn to check in. Some of us still busy camwhoring while waiting for the time past haha =)

We looks so tired. Most of us lacks of sleep before the trip, too exciting perhaps?! ^^

Me & Yenn camwhored in the toilet, again XD

After checked in for the hotel rooms, we rushed back to our rooms and take a short rest. Everybody really so tired but we still want to go to theme park and play till siaoz haha XD

Ermm... Please dont miunderstood yah!! Acting ML-ing hahaa XD

Yenn requested me to post it up hehe =]

Sadly, the weather are not so good and cloudy that time. We wasted time on considering to buy ticket for the theme park since the weather is not good at all. But lastly we decided to purchase the all-park tickets by the majority of us. We still can play indoor while outside is still raining =)

Pirates Ship was our first choice =) Not enough syok for the first time then go for the second time haha XD

Haha can you see them?! Still left some pirates ship's pics at David's hp =)

When we playing for the second round, the weather turns really cloudy and started raining, so we decided to back into the indoor theme park while waiting for the rains stop. We went for a small tiny 3D cinema hehe...

Peace!!!! ^^

Our pretty class representative Ah Yenn, Chris & Cheng.

In the tiny 3D cinema.

The shitty 3D thingy really make me so dizzy =='' Then, we went for bumper cars and mini coaster. After that, we continue for the outdoor park since the rain seems getting stop soon. We went for go-karts. Ohh my favourite one!!! They kept teasing me dont no to drive since I dont have a drving license arghh ><"

Wearing shower cap before go for the go-karts session!!!

Okay, I'll stop here then^^

Still alots of things to blog for the next part two. More pics comin' soon =p

Stay tunes yah muacks~

XOXO

A Little Short Update =)

2009-02-23T02:04:00.007+08:00

♥ Hello world =)

How are you all? Feel like wanna update a little thing to blog up here hehe =p

I cant wait the genting trip plan with my DMK5 classmates, most of them going and had alots of fun for sure!! I'll blog the trip soon with alots of pictures. Love you all muacks~ =)

Stay tunes yah =p

Ohh cant wait to get my salary and spend all of them ngek ngek.. what a big spender am I haha...

I saw something that I was craving for a long long time... M.A.C Cosmetics!!!

I wanna collect them in my cosmetics collection hehe =) Thou the product are kinda pricey, (for me I just can afford those like Kate, Majolica Majorca, Maybeline and many more..) but their quality are really good and worthy.

M.A.C & Hello Kitty Collaboration 2009 will launch on March in Msia!!! =)

Omg I just cant wait!!! I want all of them!! They're just so cute^^

Sooo cute!!! Hello Kitty lovers~

Hello Kitty Mild.

Hello Kitty Wild.

Aren't them are so cute?! Hahaha omg this all are just inspiring me wanna be a make up artist that I dream for =) I love cat eyes makeup hehe, examples of some artists like Amy Winehouse and Rihanna. I love their make up ^^ Ohh Im going to spend so much soon =p

Hope you all enjoy it XD

Much of Loves.

XOXO

Make up forever.

2009-02-20T10:29:00.007+08:00

♥ I need more fresh airrrr!!! Sighhh... Yea, a real person's personality the ugly side perhaps? can figure it out when you know more and more about he/she... I know I should accept of the bad sides of hers, but I cant bear on it anymore, why even friendship can be so scary? Haihz =(

It's turn out so hurtful when she used to like that... and I thought she's the one who I can trust with... share everything with.. but... Sighing =( Exhausted.

Okay. Back to the topic.

Will you love me with your truly deepest heart?

Working time. Love soft curly hair.

On thrusday, went to SUB international school of make-up and beauty to help my babe Chooi Yan to be a make-up model for her and her classmates make-up test. It was great to became a make-up model for her classmates, Stephy. I really hope to be a make-up artist too. Hmm will consider about it later hehe =)

The make-up test topic is the bridal make-up. For me, I dont really like it larh haha shhh.. Bridal make-up needs loads of foundation and powder to create a high-coverage, porcelain like make-up look. Dark shade eyeshadow like black and dark purple and blend it together to create a glam smokey eyes make up with fake eyelashes. And with some blusher and highlights for rosey cheeks and 3D look. Finally with a littile of pinkish shimmery lip gloss and a little hair-do.

Me and my make-up artist Stephy.

Wan Teng and her make up artist Mei Yi.

Some gropie pics =)

Me, Ee Tian & Wan Teng =)

After the photograph session then camwhore and camwhore by our ownself =p

Ma Lao Si Fat Tracy & Wan Teng. Ngek Ngek =p

Can you notice our damn thick make-up wahaha XD

Ohh I love Ee Tian's dress-cheongsam. She looks gorgeous on it =D

After the make-up test and camwhore session, we felt hungry and went to Channel 6 for fulfill our empty stomach hehehe =) Chooi Yan cant join us caused she needs to send her lil bro to hospital. Long time didnt met my babes seriously. Miss them alots. Hang out and club nextime la wey ngek ngek =p

My lil goals chips...

-I want a driving license!!!! Aikss so damn inconvenience without a driving license haih =(

-Dieeettttttt DIET!! I looked fat in all photos haih... When I grow up I wanna be star I wanna be a first hot chick hehe... crapss

- I want a hair straightener and curler =p I love to set my hair !!!

Okay larh. Lazy liao.

Byeeeeeeee =p

Hug & kisses.

XOXO

My Life Would Sucks Without You.

2009-02-15T06:40:00.003+08:00

♥ Hello everyone =) How was everyone's Valentine's day? Mine was nice yet simple haha^^ Thou just spent my time with my friends. Hmm what do I think about the Valentine's day? For me, if each couples are always maintain good in their relationship between of them, then everyday is Valentine's day. No matter what happened they'll still always stand by and care for each other and share everything between of them. It'll be great if I have a bf to spend with hehe =p. Anyhow, hope you all did enjoyed your Valentine's day with your special ones =)

However, I've to work on the Valentine's eve hehe... After work, went Niki's house for sleepover due to the inconvenience when I back home after work. I still miss my room badly that time haha.. We chit-chat untill early morning and woke up at 9am. WTF seriously tired that time!!! Almost felt asleep at her mum's shop.

Camwhored during working =) Dear & me.

After finished lunch with her parents, continue back home and my beauty sleep hehe. Feels so good when back home, I really love my home and my noisy family members hehe. Mummy's girl =) Then, got a call from my friends for karaoke session. I thought my V's day is gonna sleep and pamper myself at home for whole day honestly =( Pity me.

Lonely girl. *Innocent* =p

Me, Gary, Pei Pei, Wai and friends.

3 couples in the room just me and Gary. So called light bulbs? Er hemm..

Damn irritating and annoying when singing k with them. Being too sweet of them grrr! I felt so really jealous of them caused they found such nice bf/gf, but Im not okay!! Hahaha. Nah, maybe just a part of the night larh. Didnt really wanna dating that day thou got people asked my out. I still prefer hanging out with my friends.

Single life is good okay?! For those who against single larh.. whatever just crap here =)

Maybe the suitable time havent come yet. for me. Who knows? Love is in the air =)

Gotta to go now. Tired like hell x.x

Loves.

XOXO

Loneliness.

2009-02-11T05:19:00.004+08:00

Adia I do believe I failed you

Adia I know I let you down

Don’t you know I tried so hard

To love you in my way

It’s easy let it go...

Adia I’m empty since you left me

Trying to find a way to carry on

I search myself and everyone

To see where we went wrong’cause there’s no one left to finger

There’s no one here to blame

There’s no one left to talk to, honey

And there ain’t no one to buy our innocence’cause we are born innocent

Believe me adia, we are still innocent

It’s easy, we all falter

Does it matter?

Adia I thought that we could make it

But I know I can’t change the way you feel

I leave you with your misery

A friend who won’t betray

I pull you from your tower

I take away your pain

And show you all the beauty you possess

If you’d only let yourself believe that

We are born innocent

Believe me adia, we are still innocent

It’s easy, we all falter, does it matter?

Believe me adia, we are still innocent’cause we are born innocent

Adia we are still innocent

It’s easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

♥ Motha F*cker CheeBye this song really makes so emo and wanna cry when I heard it.. I think I heard it from one of an episode of Gossip Girl I guess, cant think of it when I heard it before...

Love it so much... by Sarah McLachlan- Adia.

p/s: Tracy, you gonna learn to be more tough and independent. dont wanna to think about him anymore...

XOXO

Nothing much precious than my girls =]

2009-02-09T09:53:00.009+08:00

♥ Sighhh I did something that I really really wouldnt do... What happened if I did the wrong mistake again?! I hate the feeling, it's sucks. Sigh =[

Craps.

Fuckin' insomnia really makes me sick these days urgghh!! I need some therapy for

it larh!!

Always woke up in the early morning then continue to be a pig after breakfast....

Die soon ==' hahaha =D

Awww back to the topic.

On sunday, my company held a meeting and an annual dinner for CNY. Every employees compulsory to attend the meeting =] Finished prepare then headed to Sunway office for the meeting. Everyone must reach to the office before 5pm but ended up the late one is our manager hehe... Since Im the newbie of the company, I met other collagues that havent met before. The other group girls and the PICs. Kinda shy at first, really dont no what to say. After meeting, we took some group pics of us.

After that, we headed to Cheras for dinner hehe ^^ The girls are so funny and friendly, glad to meet them and work together in a same company.

Can spot me in the pic? Omg most of them are so skinny. Envy them ><. Then, went to Neway for karaoke session.

Damn big lar the room.

Dont really in the mood for sing k that night, too many peoples in a karaoke room is not a good thing too. Maybe Im kinda shy so wont 'struggle' because of a mic haha =] Prefer for a smaller group in a karaoke room. Just camwhore and camwhore in the room.

Dear Sheynie and me. In KO-state haha =]

Sukiyo, Sheynie and me=]

Pity me really tipsy that night. The senior kept serves the beer for me T.T

I hate alcohol!!! urgghh

><'''

p/s: Haih I really dont no what I want, I did felt happy when you back.. But Im scared I trust a wrong person again.. sigh*

XOXO

Sarangheiyo ♥

2009-02-07T19:30:00.006+08:00

♥ Hello world =] Sorry for lacks of updates hehe, due to my stupid cacat optical mouse(difficulty to update my blog) and busy for a workaholic's life haha =D Currently Im work for an event management company, doing sales for vodka and bacardi. My thought at first for this job is kinda fun and enjoy because the working place is either in pubs or clubs but I found that this is not an easy job urgh!! I have to forced to drink some alcohol and communicate with the customers which are the part that I really hate the most. But I think it's quite useful for my marketing course on doing sale skill I guess hehe. Alcohol really started makes me wanna puke when I saw them ><" and I hate to talk to those strangers (customers) but I forced to!!! To those people that really knows me well, I really dislike to talk to a stranger as Im quite a passive person hehe XD However I need to work hard to do more sales!!!

Hmm workaholic also need some rest also wert right? Hahaha Im sure wont refuse to attend some invitation for partaayy XD Went to Quattro Avenue K on friday night. It was my first time to club at Quattro. Haha nice interior design and with nice and friendly peoples there. Not much of teenagers but many adults. I love the four season theme in every season of the interior design of the club =] It's a nice recommended place for drinking session and meeting in the winter bar. Kinda suprised that Quattro is really packed like sardines on friday night. Had alots of fun and happening that night =]

Niki & me again. Where's my babe Teng eh?!

Me in the winter bar. A small tidy snow house :)

An angmo wanna take pic with me & Niki :) Niki what are you doing eh? haha XD

Stupid Adrian and friends keep forcing us to drink stupid black label, feel like wanna puke when seen any alcohol ishhh!!! No more alcohol larh please.... T.T

Confessions of a Shopaholic

Red Cliff 2

Bride War (Im comin' hehehe!!)

Gotta go now larh. Lazy to blog more due to my cacat mouse urgh =='

p/s: I hate myself for still missin' you so ... hope you'll come back one day sigh...

Byeeeee.

XOXO

Confessions of A Broken Heart.

2009-02-01T22:37:00.005+08:00

♥ You really cant always want things your way, really.

Being naive and foolish,

thought he's the one who gave her the greatest love and hugs,

but she doesnt know when she's really in love,

she had already dropped the trap made by him..

As time goes by,

things goes too perfectly....

she finally woke up from the dream

she pinched herself in the arms, reality check

all he want is just to fulfill his wants not her.

It's really fucked this things up.

She's really fell so bad this time

Heart broken into many pieces.

Loss of confidence and trustworthy. Tired of love.

Hurt so bad again and again.

First day of CNY.

2009-01-29T01:39:00.010+08:00

♥ Happy CNY and gong xi fa cai everyone!!! :) Every year of the first day of CNY, we'll usually have a big reunion and had lunch buffet in somewhere hotel with my big family. Can be said as our Teo's family tradition :) On the first day of CNY, we were waiting for the other relatives to meet up at my grandpa's old house as usual while collecting some angpaos from my uncles and aunts. (Hunting angpao operation begun haha XD) Then, me and my big family members had our lunch buffet at Boulevard Hotel Mid Valley when all the relatives has arrived.

Met all of my cousins that did not meet for an ages hehe :) Chat and chat non-stop haha :) We took alots of pictures as usual^^

Hug & kisses :)

Taken by my cousin sis Aisya^^

Please ignore the fatty Tracy haha XD

My dearest Papa, mummy, lil bro and sis :)

All of my lovely cousins^^

The girls.

The boys.

Me and my cousin Xing Wei :)

Asri Teo :)

Aisya Teo :)
Kim Man :)

Tiger Lee :)

Thou is quite bored that day, but at least can met all of my cousins caused most of the time they're busy, and we're really seldom to meet up for each other :) Cousins and cousins bonding time haha XD

That's all for the first day of CNY post larh.

ANYHOW

On the next day of CNY, went to Kuantan to meet up my mum's side relatives as usual. Most of my relatives's relationship from Kuantan are more closer than the local's one hehe :) Soo glad to see them^^

But sadly saw my grandpa still in not very well condition because of his kidney failure problem :(

Hope he'll get well soon. Take care yah all of my cousins in Kuantan caused it's really hard to meet them since Kuantan is quite far from KL.

Loves.

XOXO

Back to Basics.

2009-01-28T00:45:00.015+08:00

♥ Hello everyone!! How's life? I had alots of fun these days.. I told to myself must enjoy till to the fullest for my 5 weeks semester break with no regret. Clubs, parties, shopping spree, outing my dearest babes, and jobs and coming soon more and more haha XD

Hmm I really must have to plan my to-do-list, hmphh just to improve myself to live a better life and not with procrastination and laziness for the 5 weeks holidays :) cacat

First,
I really need a hair make over. My hair colour looks like highlighted but if you know me well I hates highlighted hair, I still prefer my hair colour with only one tone of colour. I love ma hair :)

Second,

I need to clean up my damn messy room hahaha until now I havent clean up my room for CNY... How lazy am I!! XD Some pics of my room^^

Third,
This is a bad news. I dont have any confidence for the result of my second sem exam, I mean, if my result still remain unsatisfactory maybe I'll plan to leave my college :( I've tried my very best, wait until the result came out then . But I'll really miss them badly :(

DMK5 Forever!! XD

Forth,
I need to work so hard to earn more money wakaka XD Earn more splurge more!!! I want M.A.C cosmetics, I want more more clothes, shoes and accessories!! XD I dont wanna to depends too much on my dad larh. I wanna be more independent^^

My make up collection. Make-up artist wannabe :)
Fake eyelashes is a must!!!

Fifth,
As usual, I want more partaaayyy!! Yeah, still waiting my dearest babes to plan for our next round party haha :) MOS Euphoria, Poppy, Maison here I come!!! XD

Me and Niki still hit to the club on the first day of CNY XD

Barcelona night!! Didnt club at there for so long^^

Must cam-whore till cukup cukup :)

Sixth,
Never stop learning. Thanks to my parents who gave me enough of freedom. I'd learned many things from the outside society. Learning to be more mature, understanding, behave of myself and many more. Set my own future goals and dreams and I'll try very best to achieve it.

Seventh,
I wanna lose weight!!! I hate this part right here~ Im always a Lena Fujii wannabe. Omfg she's damn hot man!!! Really inspiring me alots~~ Hope to be a hottie like her :) Gambateh!!!

You're way too hot girl :P

Hmm I think I'll set my 5weeks-goals until here larh, cause I cant think of any of them :) Hard to accomplish it leh XD I mean the seventh one hahaha :)
Enjoy my 5 weeks holidays to the max :)

Will post up some pics of the first day of CNY with my family members soon~
Lazy liao.
Byeeeeeeee.

Loves.

XOXO

p/s: I miss you badly :(

I Miss Partaaayy!!

2009-01-25T05:29:00.009+08:00

★ Oh fucking exam is finally over!!! It's Over!! Wahaha~ Stress are totally gone naturally yeah!! :D No need to study like hell and burn the midnight oil every single night!! All I want is Partaaay and shopping!! *winks*

On the evening, I got a call from babe Niki, asking me whether wanna join her to club at Poppy Garden... Hmm how can I resist it since Im craving it for soo much eh?!
My answer is surely 100% confirm :)

But not that fun as I thought caused it was totally crowded there, wanna walk to some where else also difficult :( the good thing is I had met a lots of friends at there hehe :)

Piccies Time

There's no difference after dyed my hair. Wasted :(

Fav pic of the night :) Niki & me.

Shan Shan :)

Ken & Kiit :). The fucking drunkard.

Hmm Im wishing for more parties and parties hehe... Wanna play hard, work hard( part-time job), sleep hard(pig's life), lose weight(a lil too plump huh?) and shop till drop(confessions of a shopaholic) XD Earn more money to get the stuffs that I really want for so long :) Gambateh!
Tomorrow need to wake up early to have brunch/reunion with my big family hee...
More red packets please...

Happy holidays to my beloves classmates muacks~
And Im hereby to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Ox Year :)
Everything will go smoothly and dreams will come true..

Byeeeee.

Loves.

XOXO

Bleeding Love.

2009-01-23T13:53:00.005+08:00

我的心真的很痛很痛。。

很想把自己灌醉然後什么都不想想了。。

分开是一种解脱可以让你好好地想过吗？

对你也好对我也很好吗？

好讨厌这种感觉啊。。。你会明白吗？知道我是有多么心痛吗？

Hope you'll understand one day..

Im wishing you well.. and I really meant it...

XOXO

Sem 2 is over...

2009-01-22T06:17:00.002+08:00

♥ Im back!! :) Sorry for lack of update due to for struggling for exam these days. Will be more updates after the exam is over which is on 24/1 saturday. ( Woohoo the day is almost come soon, just 2 more days and I gonna be free for 5 weeks wahaha~) Im gonna plan for my 5 weeks to-do-list, dont wanna to waste my precious 5 weeks holidays :)

Hmm speaking about exam... I dont think I can do it well on my BISA and FOA. One word, FAIL-ing. Darn Im so moodless and upset when I think about this 2 subs. Used to it, perhaps? Haih... felt that Im so useless.. And, I just came back from bukit bintang to have some shopping with my coursemates after the Bisa paper is over, darn I did not shop well because my friend is rush in time for another event. Ishh I wanna shop till drop after CNY hee :D

Sorry cause I dont have the mood to blogging right now, just a short post :p
Emo-ing... haih :( Im not that strong enough...

Ciaoz larh. Time to have my beauty sleep :)
Lazy liao . Byeeee

Loves.

XOXO

Absolute Ordinary ♥

Recovered.

Depression.

爱情真的好难。。 可是友情更难更心疼。。。

❤ It's for the better.

加油~

还是一样。。。

Only time will heals everything.

Confessions of another broken heart =.=

太在乎，就什麼也得不到…

Life's like a competition~

You're my everything =]

I believe.

Year End Sales is L.O.V.E !!!!!

Been Mia long long time~

Fuckin' Cant wait!!!!!

Im back~ =)

Helllo =)

Life's miserable sometimes =(((

Movies review.

Random Updates.

Movies.

Adore =)

Hectic life.

My Make Up Case Wishlist =)

Fight for the future.

Grace's bday celebration @ Zouk, Phuture.

Confessions Of A Shopaholic ♥

Mun Teng's bday celebration @ MOS, Euphoria.

Recent.

Addy's 22th Birthday Celeb @ Quattro and Velvet Underground.

Obsessed.

Recent.

Cosmo Beaute Asia 2009.

Love is Hurt.

The Fear.

Clumsy Cause Im Fallin' in Love

Michael Jackson.

Sorry, I cant control my emotional mood, again...

Friendship Remains Forever.

Love <3

I hate myself =(

Keep Fit!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Recent Me.

Tracy's Secret Recipe XD

Loneliness.

Way Back Into Love.

Ohhhh my effing god!!!!!!!!!

Hate That I Love You.

Memories Last Forever.

Girls Day Out =)

Lets get the partaayy started =)

Love is in the air...

Tracy's Secret Recipe XD

最幸福的事

Holidays.

One more to go...

Sem 3 is over...

Exam Week.

Blame On Me.

Dilemma.

Time Heals Everything.

Thinking Of You.

Never Let you go...

Envy or motivation?

Im Always Alone.

It's too late to apologize...

Fall For You.

Diet-must.

The Recent Me.

Life's a Mistery.

Imperfection.

Mist Club Night =D

You're my everything that I wanted.

First DMK5 Genting Trip Part 2.

First DMK5 Genting Trip Part 1.

A Little Short Update =)

Make up forever.

My Life Would Sucks Without You.

Loneliness.

爱情真的好难。。可是友情更难更心疼。。。